I hate myself
this isn't a suicidal rant I just have to vent or I'm going to go insane I cant talk to anyone I know about this because I throw hints and they get mad.
I hate myself for being born into a minority group.
why is it that I was born into a minority group and the worst one at that.
why is it that I'm looked at as a pariah something to be hated and feared no matter what I do.
why is it that I have to be from a group of people even other minorities love to talk down on and call apes.
why is it that I'm seen as a inferior being who is seen as something underserving of anything I achieve or accomplish.
that I'm seen as a blight and a possible threat to civilization that I can never try to reach for the stars.
why couldn't I have been born into the majority group because as far as I see it they never have to try hard I see them as lucky and my group as cursed.
I cant stand it why is it that I had to be born a minority and from the worst group of people some people from the majority will say that minorities have it good and perks but they will never get how lucky they are.
I know minorities in other countries on this planet face problems some worse then others but it still sucks.
I try to suppress how I feel but all I feel is rage at myself and everyone around me I think its spiritually killing me and I'm feeling more and more dead inside.
your right it sucks being a minority. | 5 | |
being apart of the majority isnt as good as you think it is. | 4 | |
your suffering from self haterd and should seek help. | 7 |