I hate myself

this isn't a suicidal rant I just have to vent or I'm going to go insane I cant talk to anyone I know about this because I throw hints and they get mad.

I hate myself for being born into a minority group.

why is it that I was born into a minority group and the worst one at that.

why is it that I'm looked at as a pariah something to be hated and feared no matter what I do.

why is it that I have to be from a group of people even other minorities love to talk down on and call apes.

why is it that I'm seen as a inferior being who is seen as something underserving of anything I achieve or accomplish.

that I'm seen as a blight and a possible threat to civilization that I can never try to reach for the stars.

why couldn't I have been born into the majority group because as far as I see it they never have to try hard I see them as lucky and my group as cursed.

I cant stand it why is it that I had to be born a minority and from the worst group of people some people from the majority will say that minorities have it good and perks but they will never get how lucky they are.

I know minorities in other countries on this planet face problems some worse then others but it still sucks.

I try to suppress how I feel but all I feel is rage at myself and everyone around me I think its spiritually killing me and I'm feeling more and more dead inside.

your right it sucks being a minority. 5
being apart of the majority isnt as good as you think it is. 4
your suffering from self haterd and should seek help. 7
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Comments ( 5 )
  • TerriAngel

    Chill out.
    Focus. Look at what's going on.
    Obama was a great president.
    It pissed me off hearing folks call him N. etc.
    I said, even a kkk person can vote for Obama.
    Just vote for his white 1/2.
    Point is, a portion of America shit a brick over Obama being elected.
    THEY MOBILIZED. Got Russian help, the Koch brothers billions, some jew backers.
    They bought the election.
    That said, it's the last hurrah.
    Racist white is the minority in the U.S.
    IF folks mobilize..
    Trump will be the LAST white racist president you will ever see.
    Question is, will you give up.
    Let him win.
    Or stand up and organize like M.L.K.

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  • TerriAngel

    If there's one thing I'm sure of about minorities.
    If you are one, you are just in the wrong place.
    I know that doesn't make it any easier.
    But, I've spent some time in that situation.
    It helped me, afterwards.
    I'm not so quick to judge.
    Curious to know what group you're from, that you feel is seen as so terrible.
    Unless you're a zionist I don't have issue with you.
    I'd say consider moving, as soon as you can.
    To places you are either accepted or a part of that areas majority.

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    • TheBlindInquisitor

      I wouldn't say I'm in the worse place I'm black American mixed with Dominican. America has come a long way but it feels like socially we are heading backwards.

      I seems like people feel that blacks shouldn't have power or they will destroy things.

      and when I heard the president say that one black guy ruined any chance for a black person being president for one hundred years that really cut deep.

      I have had the thoughts before and for years it wasn't until I heard that and how a lot of people agreed it made it come out more.

      I don't feel like I belong in the country that I was born in and the worst part I have nowhere else to go I can go to any country in Africa because I have no ties there and they hate black Americans more then anything I cant go to the Dominican republic because there is a similar stigma.

      I work hard and I keep my nose clean but some people feel that I haven't earned it they think that its because of things like affirmative action or diversity quotas that I took the spot from someone more deserving from the majority.

      not only that my group is seen as a source for chaos if a few black gang members do something all blacks are seen as the problem you have people who think that blacks are more prone to violence.

      its gotten to the point were I'm starting to hate everything because no matter how far we have come as a nation you have social stigma.

      I know everyone isn't like this but the small group that are getting lower they are getting more power and they are trying to make it more socially normal to look down on minority groups.

      I cant take it because I dint have any other options I'm sorry if this is to long and over winded but like I said its driving me insane.

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  • hungDaddy

    If you need to, feel free to send me a PM if you want to talk. I understand your emotions; you're not alone thinking these things, and there's people here to listen.

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    • TheBlindInquisitor

      I'm aware that others feel the same it depends if they speak on it or not or in some cases they can get destructive.

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