I hate my mum
Is it normal for a child to hate their mum? She brought me into the world yet everything she does irritates the shit out of me, she is rude, obnoxious, up her self and just genuinely disgusting sneaky person. We have never got on and I never intend on doing so and I'm sure its the same with her,she has always told me she hates me yet when I fight her back on something she acts as if she is the victim.
We always argue over my phone, there was a situation back in March where my mum checked my phone randomly and saw a conversation with my now ex boyfriend because we were sexting. I understand what I did was wrong but she wants to remind me of what I did everyday and I feel disgusting yet she continues with it. As a punishment she took my phone for 5 whole months and have recently just got it back because it turns out her favourite child isn't exactly an angel. But now, she takes it everyday at night and don't get me wrong its not like it annoys me that its not in my room its just that I know she is checking it and she makes me feel like I have done something completely wrong yet I haven't. I also just want tot listen to music at night and relax and fall asleep to it as that is the best way for me to sleep but she always has taken it away which means I haven't had a good sleep in years.
She's also very strict in terms of religion, she preaches so much shit and says i'm a horrible person yet when she was my age she admitted she did some bad shit but just never got caught making it okay. The only reason why I get caught for everything I do wrong is because she's nosy and sly, she always checks my phone and goes through my room, and she complains she cant trust me when I cant even trust her. She thinks because she's my 'mum' that I have to be her slave. She thinks i'm the useless child, I will admit i'm lazy but what teenager isn't? Im not going to do the dishes straight away or clean my room straight away Im going to chill and then do it because i'm tried.
All I want to do is leave and being 15 sucks, my dad wont take me in and neither will my gran, no one wants me and my mum is doing my head in, its okay for her to say so much shit to me in person but I cant because i'm the 'child' I genuinely cant wait until she's older and I move out, I pray she comes to me for help because I cant wait to see her face when I slam the door in her face like she's doing to be when I at least try to get along with her.
I really do hate her and I don't thing its healthy or normal and I have no clue what to do