I hate my mother
I don't know how to start this.. but I think if you have a sick mean mother you end up hating her because you have been coping with her crap since your childhood, and because you're young,vulnerable so you become scared of her, not trusting her and keeping low profile otherwise she'beat you, call you names all kind of abuse you can imagine, verbal, mental,physical etc...I am the victim and my brothers & sister were before me. My Mother used to hate my father, but she had 6 children with him. I don't understand why she had so many kids while she can't stand him and as she always says it was a family marriage. My dad was fun and generous with us and he loved our mother to death. I don't want to remember my youth it was full of sad and tears and fear, constant anger, not a nice picture I want to erase it from my memory. I could not stand up to her then, only when i left home and started a life on my own. I was happier and more optimistic and I realise that life without her is much better, unfortunately I discover that I suffer from severe depression lately and had to be on medication for the rest of my life, thanks to her. So it did affect me. I wish she could accept her sickness and go to a doctor for help. It is more than a year now since our last fight over the phone and I stayed out of her life. I'm much better...to be continued...