I hate my mother

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I hate my mother. She's powerful. She reduced my life, happiness,and any sense of my future happiness,self esteem, any chance of living a normal life. I tried to commit suicide, starting at 7 years old, 16 and 18.

My mother told me she hated me, wished I was never born. I said, "I did not ask to be born." She said, "yes you did." in the most evil, distainful voice, I felt like I was slapped in the face.

She just turned 70, and she is hinting around about us buying a house/duplex together. There is no way in hell this will happen. Now that the tables are turned (she needs me) Fate will step in and she will die alone. I have no plans of going to her funeral, i HATE her.

For all the beatings, for my lack of self-esteem: welcome to the end of your life. You made the bed, now lie on it.

What I just can't understand, is why this person does not cry everday for the torture she put her children thru.
Does she really think that she did everything right?

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Based on 44 votes (29 yes)
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  • barney93
    11 years ago

    she sounds selish and unwilling to changer herself, totally self riteous and self absorbed and un-caring of who she hurts, let her die alone, she needs to pay for her actions, maybe she'll finally realize how terrible of a person she is once shes sitting alone taking her last breaths with no ones hand to hold for comfort

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    • herstory
      11 years ago

      Thank you, you are right.

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  • SuperBenzid
    11 years ago

    I had pretty uncaring parents growing up and some of the things you say register with me, like the beatings. It sounds like you had a worse experience though and I am sorry you had to experience that. I have come to peace with my parents and I even get on with them these days but that was because they changed and we both came to separate my childhood and adult relationship with them.

    It sounds like you have a harder journey however and it may not even be worth making. If she is still a toxic influence on your life I would suggest cutting all ties.

    I can relate to a parent not understanding they did not do a good job. My father used to beat for crying from previous beatings, threaten to divorce my mother as a punishment and say he was going to put me in a mental institution, he would go on to ask me in all seriousness "You would have to say we were pretty much the best parents a person could get?" and became very upset when I answered no. It's amazing how blind a person can be to their own failings.

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    • herstory
      11 years ago

      Thank you, I am sorry for your suffering. If there was a way to cuddle you, I would be there in a heart-beat. But for now, I hold you in my heart.

      No one, no child should be treated like crap, and then they blame YOU for it???

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      • SuperBenzid
        11 years ago

        That is such a nice thing to say, thank you. You will be in my thoughts too. If you ever want to talk about it feel free to message me.

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  • KiraVintus
    11 years ago

    Your mom might go to hell If she does all that bull shit to you .I wish you can live with me I felt the same way you feel when the same thing happened to me with moms ex.

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    • herstory
      11 years ago

      I wish we could "move on" together. Forget about our sh*t for awhile, and just hang out. Where are you?

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  • KiraVintus
    11 years ago

    I Went though a life of hard times your not alone I wish you would have been born with a different mom.Your mom seems like a whore or a slut. I wish I was there for you and I 'd stand up and Id report her for child abuse.Because you don't deserve this at all.Best hugs and hope.Good luck with your future.:)

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    • herstory
      11 years ago

      Thank you, I know you are someone who understands, finally. I am tired of people who comment, and have no idea what we are going through. I hate when people say, But, "She is your mother." Nobody ever said, But, "She is your child."

      The emotional and physical abuse can never be taken away, and then some people say, "Move on." HOW??? I cannot forgive, I cannot forget, I cannot move on... I am stuck here as an abused child, no amount of psychiatry can help.

      I am lost in this world, just going through the motions....

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    11 years ago

    How does a person beat their children everyday? Beating your children promotes hate. My mother is confused why I do not want to take care of her.

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    • 1000yrVampireKing
      11 years ago

      If she is a bitch that is what she is. If you want to let her die alone do it. If she treated you so bad move on. Does it really matter at this point? Move on and do not let her hurt you anymore.

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      • herstory
        11 years ago

        Move on, hhhmm...sounds easy to do....

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  • herstory
    11 years ago

    thanks again for trying to help. Her religion tells her she is superior over others. She believes she will be one of the 100,000, who will be brought up to a cloud and will have to kill the rest of humanity. "Born Again Christian" There is no talking to her, like I said, she fells superior over others...

    her defense is that she is right, because of this belief, that she is a choosen member, by God... You cannot say or do anything. She is dense in this belief, and, again, she is right, and everybody who doesn;t follow in this belief is wrong.

    The funny thing is, I was raised Catholic, and she was the same way. She was SO stong in this belief, and made us suffer for it, I barely go to Church anymore. It was not enjoyable.

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  • KiraVintus
    11 years ago

    XD Alabama Usa

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    • herstory
      11 years ago

      I'm in MS.

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