I hate my life at home
I hate my mother so much , it's been years with me feeling like this , I just wanna kill my self or something , I have no where else to go , I don't wanna live with any of my parents I wish I can live with my grandma . My mom always bringing dirty men in the house who are good for nothing they be leaving they dirty doodoo stain underwear everywhere smoking up the house making it stink , leaving ashes from it everywhere , putting cups and spoons on the bathroom they be making mad mess and she expects me to do it all , and he's mad rude and disrespectful always cursing at me calling me all these names and always saying something on everything I do as if he my father and when I say something I'm the wrong one and my mom will try to hit me and scream at me and take away everything and wanna call my real dad and tell him what I do but never calls him for anything good mean while she says he's nothing and nobody to be telling me anything and that he wishes he wasn't my father , I have nobody . No body loves me I wish I was dead , I just know I'm going to die and go to hell . Am I wrong for feeling this way ?