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Is it normal to hate your family and hate yourself because of that? Mine are rejects. They're poor backwoods druggies and fatties. Was I adopted? I'm the only one with a job and friends. My family is scary gross. I avoid them. They make me feel bad about myself. I want to erase them, so I have no connection to them.
I agree I went no contact with my family 8 years ago after my beloved dad died and my family just went crazy. I can and will make it on my own and the hurt and pain from being around any of them is just too much. But there is a downside. You have no one to support you and love you unconditionally but since you never had that you want miss it too much. Holidays are kinda rough but do things to make yourself happy. Try to make good friends that will be there for you for support because honestly it is sad to see other families be close and loving and to know you will never have that. good luck and take care of YOU!
My family situation is extremely complicated, people that make you feel isolated and alone and expect you to be "normal" like one of the family when they throw you aside in the ditch as they're incapable of having a real converstation without putting someone down. Such simple simple people, humour is there drug of choice to make it through the day but I am not laughing. A slow and startling darkness develops deep into your core and eventually exudes through the every fiber of your being till you stink like it. People can smell the loathing on you, and you begin to hate everyone till the day you take your life. Then when that fails you receed into your own mind until the day you snap and just fucking go on a killing spree as you sneak into there home as there sleeping. Slit their wifes throat nice and quitely put a pillow over their head and wake them while allowing them to see you. Gun in your hand and you whisper who is lauging now, as you turn there head to the wife all they can feel is blood soaked sheets as you pull the trigger. Finally you have release.
So yes if you don't want to be like me just get out while you can, be positive whatever the hell that means. make friends and just do shit. Cutt all ties because it will rot you to the core. All the best mate.