I hate my boyfriend, is it normal?
So I've been with my boyfriend 2 years, question is why can't I let him go? I know it's probably been asked a lot but I hate him, I cry pretty much 50% of weekends.
So story is, we met and it was a bit rocky to start with then things got great, brilliant couldn't be happier! Unfortunately things started getting weird we'd argue a lot about things and he'd go out drinking with his friends. Don't get me wrong I don't mind but it's the fact half the time we would arrange to do something I'd be ready and waiting and few hours pass to realise he's not actually coming or we ain't doing anything so I've pretty much wasted all that time waiting! We'd argue about it and not see each other that day or night.
We both work full time during the week so I usually see him once or twice for an hour or two, some weekdays he's all nice and lovely but soon it's the weekend I'll try & try to make plans to spend time with him that's not an hour during the week but he'd rather be with his friends and drink he says he doesn't need to see me all weekend 'which I never do anyways, I usually ask for one day or few hours'.
I'm 23 years old and he still seems immature, tells me he loves me and never wants to lose me but really he gives me the impression he doesn't care. I've never known anyone to go on like he does. I can't talk to him cause he gets the wrong impression and we'll argue, it's not healthy Im not 16 playing games anymore! Now I'm at the point I'm fed up of being let down so much and upset with how he treats me on a weekend I actually hate him and hate myself for staying but cant give him up he worms back in being all nice ect and I don't know what to do, I'm not really that strong tbh to understand or know what to do!
Is this normal feelings or am I just weird? What to do & how?
Probs sounds like a blag but least I got it off my chest. Thanks!