I hate him, but i love him too?

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(I'll try to keep it short) I think this question has been asked before, so excuse me if it has. So here's the deal, I like my roommate, but he repulses me. We touch (Inappropriately) and I tell him I love him and vice versa, but not in a gay way, more of in a.. "best buds" kind of way. We sleep in the same bed (there's mold on the ceiling so neither of us wants top bunk) and we've gotten comfortable enough to just be in our undewear. One night, he asks if he can take his underwear off because it was hot, so I let him. I turned the opposite direction, not caring about him, when he starts spooning me! I felt his obvious excitement. He then proceeded to hump me. I was really turned on at this point. Anyway, we jacked each other off exchanged a few "I love you"s, but here's the thing: I DO NOT like him. Just the thought of me and him makes me sick. But at night, I cant keep my hands off, it's link I'm a different person... Wtf is wrong with me? I like, but I hate him too.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    It seems like the 'hate' is coming from feeling trapped in a situation you don't want to be in.

    The affection and sexual behaviour could be due to a variety of things. But, according to how it made you feel, it seems like it was only a step up from masturbation for you and didn't have a whole lot to do with attraction. And, you're probably getting a vibe from him that it is attraction on his part and it's making you feel uncomfortable.

    Be kind and talk to him with some respect, but you have to set some boundaries. You can't go on living like this if it's making you feel as though your accepting nature is turning you into a victim in this situation.

    It is okay to say "no" and stop saying "I love you" if that's really not how you feel. Maybe start sleeping on the couch or floor for a while, until the mildew is sorted out.

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  • iEatZombies_
    10 years ago

    I don't consider this gay- you get turned on because it's sexual tension, not because you're attracted to him. You can get turned on by a lot of things that you don't find attractive, but it feels wrong to you because you don't actually want to do it.
    The only comparison I can offer here is a little non-comparable for obvious reasons, but stick with me. There's an occurrence that takes place for some rape victims where they end up getting off while they're being raped. They aren't attracted to the situation, they don't want it to happen, they can even be crying and saying no. Unfortunately, our bodies are physical, so what we think and feel doesn't always reflect in what our bodies tell us to do. We're designed to take advantage of whatever is given to us, even in an unfortunate situation.
    What you did were gay acts, but unless you actually think about him and fantasize about the things you two could do, you're not really gay. You'd actually have to find yourself checking he and other men out and (CONTINUED)

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    • iEatZombies_
      10 years ago

      getting turned on by ideas. If you happen to get excited when you remember previous encounters, pay attention and ask yourself which excites you more- the guy doing something to you, or the fact that something else is getting you off.
      Most importantly, if it feels wrong, just plain wrong, stop doing it, because it is wrong in that case. Even if it was a woman, if you feel such a way you need to stop.

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  • SHAKEStheClown
    10 years ago

    I think you're probably queer.

    I would try to clean the mold, paint over it and take the top bunk!

    "One night, he asks if he can take his underwear off because it was hot, so I let him." <--- very gay.

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    • robbieforgotpw
      10 years ago

      Fudgepacker-ish

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  • Pika-girl
    10 years ago

    Me too!

    I like this guy, but he always pulls pranks 'n stuff! Hey! But I got kissed on the cheek! Wait.. no. Actually, he just licked some lid or whatever and bammed it on my face. Ahhh! How wonderfully painful it felt!

    But my sister hates him becaue he's always calling her stuff! And I'm protective for my sister, so that's a reason why I hate him. I love him because we're close friends, we have tons in common, and his smile is just so cute! But... he's a bit "wrong" if you know.

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  • Sunshine:)
    10 years ago

    It's a Love-Hate relationship.

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    • Pika-girl
      10 years ago

      Aw! I love those relationships!

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