I hate everyone
I don't know why I am like this. Since I've foud myself with a serious illness I hate everyone. I hate everyone around me, including my family and I hate everything artificial in this world and I hate to hate but I do. People do not take seriously my condition, even tho I was given 5 years to live my parents don't give a shit about it, they act like everything is the same when I have no strenght in the arms to hold my own plate to eat or cannot walk, even the drs don't give a shit. To them I am a lost case so they decided to let me die and not to spend the govs money on me. Everybody keeps acting like I had no feellings as I will die soon so what does it matter if they torture me now. I hate people smiling and laughing and talking like I wasn't desintegrating by this fucking neurologic condition. I hate my family and all of my "friends" who think I can still go out and do whatever when I am in a wheelchair. I hate this world so much. I might even hate you and I don't know you but I do hate the fact ppl will go on with their lives whilst I am here in such a physical and soul pain. I am sorry, I didn't want to be like this. I can say I still love my cats and all the honest creatures in this world but ppl are not included in it. Is it normal?