I hate everyone
i just hate everyone , ican't handlle people anymore. and i hate this feelings i wans't like that before
it's all come out when my dad passed away . i became i new person in a bad way
i don't wanna fall in love with anybody anymore cuz everyone i trust and truly love let me down and left me alone
i just wanna stay away of people . i don't wanna have any feelings anymore . cuz bad feelings gonna destroy u for sure
i'm tired of being so sad , and no one gonna undrestand that
cuz none of u is getting what i'm getting through .i lost everything when i lost my dad.even i feel like..even people that i still have can leave me any time , i don't trust anyone anymore and i can't and i don't wan't let people in , cuz they will definitiely gonna make me regret that. and now i'm pushing the boy that i think i love away . cuz it sucks when someone u love leave u for good
i don't know what to do , i'm just hopeless , i'm dying inside every single day .evry night before i sleep i wonder if i'm gonna live for another day
i'm only a teen girl and i don't think that it can be worst when i grow up or even i can live longer .
i pretend to be strong in front of evrybody even my family .cuz everybody will looove to see me me down to see me powerless to see me weak and that's who i really am , i can't believe i'm saying that in front of people . people see me as the cocky stylish popular girl , the strong ,confident girl that alwys makes fun of peole and see her self as the best arownd .but they can't see the real me , actually i don't wan't them to see the real me i want them to see the strong girl that never down cuz when they see the real me some of them will like to see me fragile and desspred and some of them will feel pity for me and i'd rather die than let people feel that over me . i do hurt feelings but i do it to make peole feel the way i feel to feel bad.i know it's not right and i have to do the opposite,i really feel bad about it and i think about it most time but i keep doing it .i get through bullying before and it's truly sucks i can't forget what people sad to me in years and now i'm doing this to make peole feel what i felt wich is not normal for sure that why i decide to keep away from peole so we both cannot hurt each other .that's my only way but this way for nowi can't live with, i want to stay alone and i don't wanna stay alone .the truth i prefer staying alone than staying with bad company and bad company for me is someone tht i can't trust or feel safe with . and i can't just give it a try and meet up with new people cuz i'm sceared , sceared of getting broken again . i even can't completly trust my family and feel really safe with and the only one that i really trusted and believed in has passed away :'(