I hate... flat out everything

My pessimism began a little over two years ago when I entered a single year of home school. Being around my family more often and peers less so made me start to dislike my family for being so annoying (so cliche, typical, fake even) and my peers for not being there for me.

At times I'll often hate the way they talk, walk, smile, dress, shop, interact with me, interact with others, or even the way they breathe.

Now I've reentered school and adjusted to the new environment (I've got a good bundle of friends, I'm not one of the "cool" kids per say but I'm friends with enough of the cool kids and too much of an idiot to be one of the geeks) and my disgust for the people in my life including friends and family has peaked. Some days I'll find myself in love with myself in the people around me, proud to have such great friends and family.

Most days I'll isolate myself from everyone even though it's not necessary and type in the most obscene things on google relating to myself, my race, anything that can offend me and those around me. I've grown bitter and envious for no reason whatsoever. I always figured those who hated the crowd where those who couldn't be a part of it. I'm very much a part of it but I still hate everyone I associate myself with at certain parts of the day.

P.S. this is usually because someone does something minor to tick me off (i.e parent grounds me, friend blows me off) and I could understand getting a LITTLE angry but I take some things too far such as praying for people to die.

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Comments ( 15 )
  • cronicmasterbator

    your just jealous cause my cat wears pijamas

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  • coolcat88

    go get a sex partner!and dont give a fuck too much about what people say or do around you! you care too fucking much you can not control the world and shouldnt care too deeply about things you cant and will never control!

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  • slothdud

    umm... well your seemingly looking a bit two sided you dont seem to hate yourself... and you really dont seem to hate anyone you just think you do... i bet you would agree that you love your parents your friends and even your bed that your parents give you but you may not admit it because you are a pessimistic by choice... and umm its not really normal most people would want friends charish what they have been given in life praise god etc... your path is shared by very few good for you though that your still living and changes can be made :)

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  • katie88

    I believe that when you hate something, it's because you are afraid of it. But anyway, why not just stop caring about the things that piss you off? If you were to shrug it off and ignore it, it would no longer bother you. Obviously you care enough to think about it so much that you've developed a hate for it. Life is not suppose to be taken this seriously!

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  • blagh

    I feel ya, I always remind myself of how I would feel if I lost them and how grateful I should be for everyone and everything that I have....

    A few minutes after you let the anger out, give yourself time to let your emotions out, but not too much time, then you'll just feel sorry for yourself and become a negative person with a big head, which your really not. ;)

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  • XJayX

    You need to get away from your friends and family. Go outside alone more, go other places alone, just spend sometime alone, or with people you don't know well but you want to know.

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  • SatresRook

    You are being acculturated into a shallow and greed driven society and are too bright to like it. You have two choices:

    1) take some prescription pills or therapy so that you dumb down enough to like malls, big cars and formulaic tv (this is the most common option for those few who have trouble becoming average)

    Or 2) expose yourself to other, admittedly pretty well hidden, ideas. I suggest Kurt Vonnegut as a simple and entreating introduction.

    Once you are no longer totally dependent on those people who annoy you, you will look on them with affectionate bemusement (since they no doubt really do like/love you).

    Unfortunately, you will then become angered by large more significant issues.

    By the way, I do not criticize option #1. It is much, much easier and you will be much, much happier if you just submit.

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  • ShikaTema666

    It's normal, hun. I feel it. But somedays, you may not notice it but, you do love your friends and family, you just have it in your head that you dislike them. At times, you just find them so annoying, even when they just talk to you once, you just wanna punch them. I believe that you just like yourself, you're just big headed and enjoy the company of yourself sometimes. But, you still do love your family and friends, you just don't notice it.

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  • lilly85

    everyone can relate to this feeling. sometimes you just want to scream it all out. but it's a lot harder to be angry and hate the things and people around you than it is to just soak in the love and beauty around you and smile.

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  • Badger91

    I know EXACTLY how you feel although our situations are different I feel angry all the time, like the way someone looks at me or if they eat too loud or just silly things like that, put it this way...very easily irritated, and I'm still looking for the answer myself

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  • Devindd

    I do the same thing

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  • mtnw

    what was the reason for home schooling anyway? was it you?

    at any rate, because you hate everyone and everything, something is wrong with you. i don't know if your parents can get you some help, but you had better realize that the way you think is the way you choose to think. it is unfortunate for you that no one around you is apparently good enough for you, for you are stuck with them, or shoud i say, they are stuck with you.

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  • KimmyKhaosXD

    anger issues, go see your doctor for good meds!

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  • Juche1

    It is capitalism that is causing a lot of problems for you.

    In a communist county people act and dress less materialistically. In a communist county people treat each other well and love their leaders.

    After the revolution things will be a lot better for you.

    My advice is read the works of Marx,Lenin,Stalin,Mao Zedong, Kim il Sung and Kim Jong Il.

    Another world is possible

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    • electricballoon

      Excusing crazy communist up there ...
      I know what you mean, sometimes I hate everyone I lay eyes upon. However, it sounds like this takes up a lot of your time and energy, and if it starts to really affect your daily life when you don't want it to, I'd suggest getting help. Maybe it's an anger issue?

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