I had sex with my best friends brother

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I was at a sleepover with my best friend, and it was about 10 o'clock. We planned on staying up later but her mom said that we had to go to sleep. We did what she said, but I woke up later in the night to go to the bathroom. On my way back to my friends room, I saw that her older brother light was still on in his room. He was playing on his Wii U, and had his back turned to me.

I asked him why he was still up and he just shrugged. I didn't really want to go back to bed so I asked him if I could play with him. He didn't object, so I sat down on his bed next to him and we played mario kart for a while.

After what I guess was our third match, he got up and turned the light off. I asked him if he was going to sleep. He told me that he wasn't. He came back over and pushed me down on the bed. I asked him what he was doing, but he didn't answer me. He tried to take my tank top off and I struggled against him.

I had always had a bit of crush on him, but I had never expected this to happen. I let him take of my tank top, but I was really scared. My heart was racing. He pinned me face down on the bed and did me from behind. I know that this probably shouldn't have happened, but I did enjoy it, so I don't think that it's rape. I had just never expected losing my virginity like that.

I haven't seen him much since this happened, and I don't really go over to my friends house anymore. I feel really dirty that this happened. I feel guilty around people, like they know what I did somehow. I don't know how to deal with it.

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  • TheShyGirlFromWork
    6 years ago

    Nothing to feel guilty of. You were surprised, but you had sex with a guy you had a crush on. It may have been unexpected, and even not the way you planned to lose your virginity, but it's in the past; so move on. As you get older, you'll learn how to tell when a guy is in the mood, and learn how to control the situation to have sex on your terms and the time when you want. It sounds like you had an intense, secret, and a special moment. I wish you many more.

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  • amg1028
    6 years ago

    If you enjoyed yourself, dont feel guilty about it but it sounds like he forced you, which isnt okay. remember you have control and a voice, dont be afraid to speak up.

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  • nikkiclaire
    6 years ago

    Idk mine was taken so i can't realy answer that.

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  • nikkiclaire
    6 years ago

    If you said no it's rape but you mentioned you "let him" take off your top.

    Don't feel guilty about it. There is nothing wrong with what happened if you enjoyed it.

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