I had sex with another boy
I’m 19, and I had sex the other day with a friend of mine, a 17 year old boy.
I feel so guilty. I’ve tried for so many years to hide being gay. My parents hate gay people. My great uncle was in jail for a little while after he and some friends threw a gay man off a bridge and almost killed him. My whole family is incredibly religious. Their Catholic, and believe God hates all gays. They’ve read me chapters from the Bible that supposedly support this.
They’ve had me sheltered for all my life. I basically haven’t left the house in years. I didn’t even get to go to high school. I had to teach myself on my own (and I even managed to get into college, which I start next year). I’ve never had any friends or done anything. Just work around the house, and constantly being beat over the head with their “morals” and watching conspiracy theorists like Alex Jones give me the news. The boy is basically the first person my age I’ve met in forever. I met him online through a virtual gifted math program, found out he lived nearby, so every once in a while he slips over the my house during a 4 hour period when basically no one else is at home because of work schedules.
I feel like I’ve done something awful. I enjoyed it and I feel like a bad person because of that.