I had gay sex. now i feel like shit.

Went to a party at a friend's house last weekend. Got drunk and really fucking stoned on weed laced with coke. My system is not used to this kind of drink and drug intake so needless to say I was not myself. Somehow I ended up in a back bedroom with a gay guy with my pants down and this homo dude sucking my cock. I remember thinking how sick this was but in my drunken, drug addled state of mind I also remember thinking: Fuck it. Feels good so lets go with it(!).I remember cumming in the guy's mouth. Next thing I knew, I was waking up at 5 the next morning. I am not gay. No fucking way. But this shit happened. Is this normal for someone who has never ever had any kind of gay sex? WTF. I know that I was fucking high and all, but I have been drunk and stoned before. WTF triggered this? I feel like shit. I guess I want someone to tell that I'll get over this so stop beating myself up. I'm normal. Well? Anybody? Can I get that?

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Comments ( 25 )
  • Darkoil

    You got a blow job, no need to get your knickers in a twist.

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  • Jweezee

    You'll get over this. Stop beating yourself up.

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    • LostAndBroken

      Hehe.

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  • thegypsysailor

    If you passed out, you should be checking your 'back door' for signs of entry. There lies the problem.

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  • ryman2020

    Lucky you, sounds like you got a good blowjob. You don't need to question your whole identity over it. Your not going to "turn into a fag" because of one experience, unless you liked it so much that you seek it out, and even if thats the case who cares. But with you it seems that you almost exclusively enjoy sex with women, and seek sex with women, and thats all there is to it. what triggered it is that you were, horny, drunk, and it felt good, and that combination lowered your stringent inhibitions enough that if something felt good enough then who cares what sexual image you hold to such stringent maintenance. If people weren't so hell bent on maintaining a strict sexual image would probably find themselves open in more situations that involved members of the sex outside of their usual preference, simply because they are human and it felt good, and wouldn't need to be drunk or high to focus simply on what feels good to them, diverting from focusing insecurely on ideas about what should and shouldn't feel good to them.

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  • Terence_the_viking

    YOu can't shit because you had gay sex?

    did the other guy lose his penis in your bum now its corked you?

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  • Happened to me less than a year ago. Although I didn't get off on it. I won't say I cared much about it even though he clearly took advantage. Shit happens, though. Gotta be more careful with the alcohol and/or drugs you consume around some people.

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    • Neuria

      Don't lie about not cumming. We both know you did. ;)

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  • ImjustJeff

    You got a blow job from another guy?

    That makes HIM gay, not you. If you go back for more, or return the favor, then I would wonder...

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    • ryman2020

      if you receive oral sex, or give oral sex, to a member of the same sex, either way it is still homoerotic intercourse. this notion that "oh if you only got sucked off by guy then you didn't do anything gay" is ignorant.

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  • RoseIsabella

    Date rape!

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  • Lips dont have gender dude.. its okay. and of COURSE you enjoyed it.. who doesn't enjoy a good blow job!?

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  • novel08

    If you are not sexually attracted to men you are not gay. Period.

    Straight people have sex with gay people all of the time, and vice versa. Your body reacts to stimuli regardless from who you lie in bed with - your brain, on the other hand, knows exactly to whom you are or are not attracted to.

    Also, FYI, you can get STDs from oral sex as well. If he had "raped" you(although it appears to me that it was your choice to get that fucked up, hence everything you did was consensual) you would have noticed the morning after, but that does not mean that what you did was 100% safe. I would not worry too much anyways. At least you can be sure that nobody got pregnant.

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  • Asstastics

    At least you didn't fuck a dog.

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  • RapidlyRotatingPanda

    This is like a lesser version of being a train driver, and someone jumping onto the tracks to kill themselves. You couldn't have done much about it, but you still feel guilty.
    ANALOGIES!

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  • mystery7

    You'll get over it and it'll no longer be a problem.

    But for that night at least you were gay, even if just for a short time (don't worry, most guys have been there and done that at some point in their life even if they don't admit to it).

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  • Ellenna

    Basically mouths are the same regardless of the gender they're attached to: if that's all that happened it doesn't mean you're gay and it'd be better for you to put it down to experience and resolve not to get so wasted in future.

    You probably would've been able to tell the next morning if he fucked you, which would be rape, but to put your mind at ease why not have a check for STD's just in case?

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  • Gspyder

    If you took all that at once and the worst thing that happened to you was that you got a good blowjob then you're fucking lucky.

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  • Avant-Garde

    To be on the safe side, you need to get yourself tested for STDs. You did pass out after all. You could've been taken from behind without realising it. Get tested before you have sex with anyone else.

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  • 213

    Atleast he sucked your prick ,imagine if you were the one who sucked his prick .lol we would be talking something now.You normal

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  • Lonely2

    Anytime we have sex with people we are not attracted to we feel yucky....and most people, especially if they use drugs or alcohol have hadba few of those....youll move on with the renewed committment to not have sex with people we are not really into....join the human race... sometimes we think something is not too bad when its happening but later we look back and say yuck....these expriences can fuck with our healthy opinion of ourselves...thatswhy we try to be more careful in the future but shit when your horny , youre horny

    If this was all a result of your drug and alcohol use you might want to watch that

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  • skankman

    Look, a raging hard cock will make any guy fuck anything on two legs (in some cases, it could include anything on four legs as well). Just the way we are, dude. You were under the influence, and, I suspect, hadn't had any poontang for a bit. Relax. Shit happens. The fact that you felt like shit afterwards should tell you something. Just get some pussy as soon as you can (some good pussy) and all be well. Trust me. I've been there. And when I woke up the fucking homo was still there laying beside me. I totally freaked. But I soon got over it.

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  • Outsider21

    you went overboard on the drugs and it sounds like you were taken advantage of in a sense. it could have been worse for sure. learn to pace yourself if your places where it would possibly end up going badly if you pass out/black out

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  • johnho

    Chalk it up to experience. Maybe someday you may want to try it straight or at least not as intoxicated. Maybe part of your remorse is that you were messed up and even though, you think you wanted it you aren't really sure. Bottom line, some part of your subconscious wanted it to happen or even intoxicated it wouln't of, my thought. Put it this way I would not lose sleep over it.

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  • davesumba

    Yes, that happens when you smoke weed. I find that if I just jack off real quick, then I won't be in the mood to let a guy suck me.

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