I guess i have a lot of issues.....

I know I am sexually frustrated. I just don't know how to fix this problem. I have the belief that guys who are under 6 feet and 6' in another measurement really shouldn't be passing their genetics on to the next generation. I fit into this category. Although I am good looking and in shape, I just cant seem to get past this absurd awkwardness around women. I can easily hang out with guys and have a great time, as soon as women come into the mix I tend to ignore them or barely bother with them. Because of my looks this tends to confuse them, and they either force me to interact with them (which is very awkward) or label me as an "asshole" or "mysterious", which is really irritating.

I don't know how to fix this at all. I figured at some point I would get more comfortable, but if anything the opposite has happened as time went by. I think maybe my lack of sex is actually a very real problem as I am too used to jerking off that sex is an afterthought, but I know I am supposed to be doing it.

I've had beautiful women over my house and I know they were pretty much waiting for me to make a "move", but I didn't and I am sure they were just as confused as I was. I looked up "Madonna/whore complex" and I think at times I may have a touch of that. Especially with pretty women. How would I even explain that to women? Especially with how judgmental women are.

I know it isn't normal but it would be very difficult, even downright painful if I was put into a room with 7-8 women that I found attractive and forced to interact with them. It would be horrible. I want to interact with them, I just cant do it, or cant do it normally or in a relaxed way.

Sometimes I have thoughts that aren't entirely sane either. Well that's life I guess.