I forgot who i am!!
I smoke weed for 2 years now & I worked well with weed in those 2 years everything was ok, I get high & have fun, recently I've changed into some other guy I don't what I'm doing & I can’t talk when I'm high. I do realize what’s going on & I know what I have to say in some occasions but mostly I just don’t know what I’m doing and I can’t talk. I always feel that I want to get into a fight with my friends & my GF, sometimes I do fight with them & other times I just ignore them. I also starting to get embarrassed in lots of occasions not like I used, I also started to think there’s no such thing as god. I also don’t know how to react to any action happens around me in lots of situation, like last night my friend came to my place with his friends & I was quiet the whole time he keeps asking me questions & I reply with simple answers like YES, NO, MAYBE, NOT SURE, OKAY that’s all I said. I’m overthinking every time I’m awake!!What I want is to be the old me I’m starting to forget the old me. I know this sounds stupid but that’s how I really feel. I sit down talk to myself wondering who I am & what was I like. I feel like I’m another guy & I feel I’ve changed into some creature that doesn’t know what to do or how to talk I feel like I had a format & feel I want to be someone else.
I smoke 7-10 joints a day but when I started feeling this way I stopped smoking for 3 weeks & still I do act the same way. Now I’m smoking again & still the same problem.
I don’t know what to do if anyone can help me I would be more than happy and gratefull to him/her.
Please don’t make fun I’m facing the biggest problem in my life.