I find myself extremely weak and worthless
Female 19
I'm extremely short and weight about 97 pounds. I'm like 4'11". I think just because I'm a girl who gets her piece of attention from everyone I do not often feel this worthless but in moments when it comes to physical strength I feel weak as hell. My brother is into gymming and stuff he's 18 and he's got his ego soaring high because of the body he has built. Whenever I'm an inconvenience to him he pins me to the ground and just because I'm extremely emotional I cry out of helplessness because I just can't stand being helpless. He would not even punch me or slap me like we used to do when we were kids, he would just wait for me to cry. He often likes to prove that I'm an inferior person and a nobody whenever we quarrel. My brother is condescending to others as well I believe but I whenever he behaves like that to me I feel that's because I'm nothing but a short, petite FEMALE. That's my absolute weak point and nothing hurts me more than that feeling. It depresses me that I'm so weak and so helpless. Irrespective of my stature I have maintained a very powerful female image of myself in all my social circles so whenever i feel otherwise I feel like an empty shell of a human and extremely depressed. I'm not a little bitch