I find it easier to tell my fetish to strangers than partners
I find it easier to let people I couldn't care less about know about my pee fetish than people I genuinely love to bits.
People can ridicule me all they like and I can shrug it off as bullying, but if I tell a partner I'm in bed with about it, my heart starts thumping 10 times as fast, my ass starts twitching like a motherfucker and my hands get all clammy due to the fear of being judged/rejection.
Needless to say I suck at relationships. Is it normal?