I feel that the only time i was truly happy was when i was in love, iin?

Fell in love with a high school friend. Was never with her but the times we would hang out I truly appreciated every second of it.

If u just forget about all the bad shit that went down between us in the friendship, I was so happy when I was around her.

I believe it put me in the moment and I always knew it wouldn't last and I'd never be with her but I miss those moments.

Ever since, I've never felt the same and life just plain sucks.
I don't care for people not like I did with her and I just think life is unjust and B.S

I'm fucking gay and I hate being looked at as a lesbian