I feel so alone.....

I always smile and laugh but I never felt close to anyone especially with by family. A lot of things happened when I was little and as a
Result I felt lonely and afraid ... I think it was since that day on my birthday my mother said I wish you were never born. Since that day all I ever thought about was pleasing everyone. I can't move on at all even tho I feel so lonely I don't know what to do. I've lived to please everyone that's what have turned into. But..... I guess I'm just waitig on someone to say it's ok for u to be here .... I've always waited for someone to say it but of course that's just a faraway dream

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  • lemon

    Please get help to overcome what your mother said to you. That is extremely damaging to your self-esteem and self-worth.

    You will never truly be happy if you only look to other people for approval. You will keep trying to make people happy and it will never be enough, you'll still feel inadequate and empty.

    Security should come from within. Your feelings and moods shouldn't be controlled by other people so much. You will literally go mad.

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  • Ambiguity

    there are millions of us out here who think like you do. Be strong! there are people who care for people like us!

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    • Thank you.

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  • Padawan

    You are one more example how parents can "go wrong" with their children
    No matter if she is your mother you should know that only real friend you have is yourself and you have to be the one who is controlling thing in your life and how they going to be!!You seem like a nice person.Pls stand up for yourself cuz none else will

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  • Midna

    Theres a a lot of things I don't care about, I only care about people I really know and like, which aren't many.

    This is probaly becuase I don't really have any emotions anymore. I've lost them a few years ago when battling depression (I still have it). I also suffer from Aspergers and Insomnia.

    My life sucks but I live with it.

    ~Midna

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  • curiouskate101

    only when you truly be yourself will people learn to apprciate you. do what makes you happy and what pleases you. and original is worth more than a copy. remeber that. people find it absoultly brave to be yourself try it and see the change and dont try so hard to get peoples approval first you have to get approval from yourself

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  • Ugh69

    I got some cheese for your self-absorbed beverage...jack ass!

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  • wearethecast

    sweetheart, I hope you get help. But I think the one thing you need to do is surround yourself with people, or just one person that you love and who appreciates you. I know it's hard, but you need to forget your mom. I know they say family is forever, but happiness should be longer. Don't put people in your life who don't make you happy.
    Make yourself happy first, because you need to be pleased to please others! stay happy and get some help!

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  • Chaychay

    awwwww you made me sad, can i give you a hug? ill be your best friend forever :) xox

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  • i was the same way when i was smaller i had to do things right. when we played jeopardy at school ppl though if they had my friend and i in 1 group they were gonna win but some times we didnt even know the answers to the ??? if i guessed wrong they would get all dissapointed..sometimes i still feel like i dont belong to dis world i feel unique.

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  • lovemuffin

    Get couseling and join a church choir. I know that sounds wierd but just give it a try. If you really want to start feeling better try it. What do you have to lose? i believe it will improve things drastically.

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    • lovemuffin

      You can do this. You can make it. You have come this far. There is no turning back now. Everything... Everything happens for a reason. Don't give up NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP. especially not on yourself or God.

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