I feel like two people in one body

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So I noticed I have the capacity to be almost split on everything. I'm all about loving people but I'm so hateful. I'll take a punch and turn the other cheek but sometimes I just want to fight people for the hell of it. All I want is peace but I'm most peaceful in chaos.

I could go on. And what's really tripping me up today is this; my crush seems to be digging on my friend and I was in an awful state about this a minute ago and now I want it to happen. She's blueballed me for months so if he gets with her it's going to be a total loss to my already crumbling confidence and I'm already feeling outed in the group so this might be the last straw. And now I almost want to see it happen. And as I write this I fear it may happen too.

I must have a penchant for self-destruction.

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  • JM13087
    9 years ago

    It's a self defense mechanism, but if it starts getting serious see a doctor.

    Remember that you are ONE person, not 2 or 3 or 50.
    you may decide to think another way because your brain finds it more helpful and productive than drowning in woe; So what if your friend marries your crush and they have 500 babies, you're true love is waiting for you somewhere out there on this planet, and you owe it to yourself to travel all the way to China if you have to just in order to find her, wooing her comes after =D

    now laugh and stop worrying about junk you have no control over and that includes fate, if it makes you feel any better according to the Multiple/Parallel Universe theory(something to do with string theory and quantum physics) there is a universe where at this moment you're making out with your crush, another where you got married at the age of 3 and another where you are superman and married to Louis lane, but she happens to be a starfish just because.... no reason.

    So don't frown , turn it upside down and do something to improve this world you live in, you get just one go at it in this life. And who knows what the future holds. out of all the infinite possibilities out there anything is possible. Heck even a blue whale may fall on your roof the next minute, there is no saying to these things.

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    • Short4Words
      9 years ago

      That actually made me tear up.

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  • youareanidiot
    8 years ago

    I can (sort of as much as you can online when I don't know you and vice versa) support you on this. Sometimes I feel like that myself, so that kind of led me to believe it was normal. If it starts getting serious, to the point you can't separate reality from fiction, see a doctor, but otherwise, I think you just might be fine.

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  • moonknight1996
    8 years ago

    it is called border-lined personality disorder

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