I feel like killing my rapist!

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My husband died when I was 23. We had 3 kids. I had to move in with my sister. Everything was fine until my sister went out with a friend one night. Her baby daddy and his dad were there. After 2 drinks I was unable to move and realized I was being raped by a father-son team. Keep in mind this is my niece and nephews dad. I followed the steps the next day with a police report and rape kit, luckily the woman I talked with on the rape hotline the morning after the rape was there. I was in a Shit ton of trouble with my family apparantly, because to this day they let him in their house, have family gatherings with them and all that. When your own father calls you a liar to your face about a rape, u should know to not look back. Ok but after several years I went back and a couple days ago I was there for my nephews bday party. Knock at the door, and I here ' Hey come in' im like W...T...F...!!!!! That's all I need to put up with I really wanted to pounce on him with a knife ny parents gave me the day before! Strangle or something! Ever since that day, all my dreams are plots to kill him, good ones but still I have kids! How can I control my rage?

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  • emilydoll
    12 years ago

    Wow... I would suggest talking to a professional and yes completely normal. Don't let this ruin your life though. And don't hurt anyonebecause it's only hurting you. You need to talk to someone about this.

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  • Darkoil
    12 years ago

    Wouldnt it be good if you could pay a big guy to go round and rape the rapist, then cut his shitty no good dick off.

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  • gemini23
    12 years ago

    Thank you for advice! There isn't a say that goes by that I ain't counting down the days to his death, but I feel its in whoevers hands I put it in. Nothing wrong with a beatdown, especially if the fucker deserves it. As far as my family, definately staying away from them...all of them. My sister and I are 3 yrs apart and have always been very close. My kids are gonna have to deal with the loss of an aunt, 2 uncles and grandparents. I don't feel they need to be around them people.

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  • Cheese123
    10 years ago

    You've got kids to take care of. Don't do it. Get revenge through making his name dirt and taking him to court.

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  • Riddler
    10 years ago

    What made you believe this reaction to the event was abnormal? They raped you so your rage is justified. Also if you ask me rapists deserve to die anyways.

    If it was up to me they would all get the death penalty. However its different how the courts would see these type of things.

    Some areas do not believe in the death penalty and I am sure if you attacked a rapist in anything besides self defense you still might go to prison for it. I am horribly sorry such things have befallen you.

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  • pao
    12 years ago

    do the same as before. get away for YEARS...
    don't worth to kill them or punch them.

    don't worth ruin your life with permanent thoughts. .. just live the day by day far away... it worked for me.

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  • seeking
    12 years ago

    It is normal to feel this way. I know I would if it happened to me.I can't believe that your family is on their side and not yours. They should be paying for what they did to you. I would be afraid of them doing the same to someone else. As for your family, I would want nothing to do with them. If they aren't supporting you then you don't need them. You have your kids to live for. I would seek help and I strongly believe in Karma. Someday they will pay for what they did to you.
    Good Luck!

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  • alfonso
    12 years ago

    it's normal to feel this way...they need to be brought to justice, you feel as though that responsibility is falling on your shoulders because the legal system/your family is doing nothing to get you the retribution you deserve.

    If it were me, I would cut off communication with your sister and her family. If your sister is willing to believe her baby daddy rapist over you, then clearly she is not deserving of your love or attention. Ignore them, and move on with your life...but don't do anything you would regret, you have kids, and the law still sees murder as murder, even if it's done for the right reasons.

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  • Inspector019
    12 years ago

    Just because family is blood, doesn't mean they are good for you. If they aren't in support of you and protecting you, then you have no obligations to remain a part of their lives. Go find a new family/support structure.... sometimes the best family figures are people you meet in life with no blood connections.

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  • 343Boy
    12 years ago

    Maybe if you let these guys information get to the right people, someone will deal them some vigilante justice.

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  • dom180
    12 years ago

    Fyi, harsher punishments do not help. A harsher punishment does not teach people who are so disturbed that they would do something like rape in the first place. Their minds do not work like "normal people". Keep a rapist in a secure mental institution, rehabilitate them, and only when you absolutlely sure that the root of the problem is solved do you release them.

    Provide councilling for people who have been raped, and their families if necessary. Then everybody is happy.

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  • dom180
    12 years ago

    All involved need councilling. Seems to me like everybody is a victim. That's you, your kids, the rapists etc. Everyone needs help, and then it can be better again. Peace.

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  • MagickWithoutTears
    12 years ago

    Shoot that fucker down!

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  • NothingxCrazy
    12 years ago

    Ever think that if there was a harsher punishment for laws, crimes like these wouldn't be so common?

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    • [Old Memory]
      12 years ago

      I agree with you. Over here, a rapist can get one year of jail while someone who steals money gets 25 years. What the fuck is that? Money can be replaced, someone getting mentally scared for life isn't something many people recover from. If I were in charge, oh rapist would get excuted live, slow torture that everyone would see. That shit would stop right there.

      BTW that tulip thing of yours on your profile is kinda addictive to say and imagine. Where is it from?

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      • NothingxCrazy
        12 years ago

        I think there should be some sort of institution for rapists/sex offenders to go in order to get help. I don't think they should just get killed on the spot. Everyone deserves a second chance because many people don't realize it's wrong until punished. It's all about conditioning.

        And I wrote it. :) It's sort of about what I've been going through. But I guess everyone goes through it every day..
        I grew with love. I went with peace. And I made mistakes.

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        • [Old Memory]
          12 years ago

          I do agree with you. But after the second time you get caught doing anything (rape, murder) my idea should be the solution. I agree people deserve a second chance but after that second chance, it's too late, it's not a mistake anymore. Besides think of all the money we will save from not having people pretty much rotting in jail. I'm sure that would help everyone. Anyways, that's what I wanted to add.

          It's beautiful in my opinion. It's great that you wrote it. I don't know why, I like saying it. It just sounds nice to me. :)

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          • NothingxCrazy
            12 years ago

            I do agree. It's not inhumane to get rid of people who have nothing to give and everything to take from the rest of society who are just trying to get by and do something with their lives.
            Although we have jail which is supposed to rehabilitate people but the government got lazy and now it's just to remove people from the rest of society..

            Thanks. :) I find myself saying it a lot too.

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  • joybird
    12 years ago

    Were they never jailed for what they did to you?

    If I really couldn't bear it, I think I'd take a knife to a pillow over and over again until I exhausted myself - all the while imagining it was the b@stards' faces! Just to get it out of me and then if I saw them again, I could just see the pillow in shreds :o)

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    • Vetterman
      12 years ago

      i like that pillow idea! sounds like a good kind of therapy to me, i am actually going to try it next time i have nightmares of jimmy. thanks!

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  • beearch
    12 years ago

    If what you say is true then you have every right to kill the fucker. Don't worry about your kids unless you live in the 3rd world. Kids always get looked after and are never left to die.

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    • Vetterman
      12 years ago

      the problem with this is that she could end up in prison and her children would suffer even more. I agree the person should suffer a slow, painful death, but i dont think she should kill him, her children need her to guide them, which she can do if she is strong enough and able to get the right help.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    That is really messed up. You need to avoid these people. Unfortunately, they're your family, but then again, they sure aren't acting like it. Leave it behind, and let God, karma (or whatever you believe in) deal with it.

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  • Vetterman
    12 years ago

    if you call the rape hotline, i am sure they can help you get the counseling you need. your anger is justified and right, but for the sake of your children you do need help.

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    • dappled
      12 years ago

      I don't mean to sound offensive about this, but why are we telling victims they need help, rather than stopping women being raped in the first place? We shouldn't accept it and then "help" them. We should stop it happening, however difficult that may be.

      A rape hotline is all very well but it's after the fact. I want a rape hotline to be redundant because no woman is ever raped.

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      • Vetterman
        12 years ago

        I want there never to be a rape either, but we have to deal with what it is now. If i had my way, after a rape was proven, all people involved would be slowly put to death. I am not above/against torture when otherwise sane people do such evil deeds, i feel it would defer alot of things.
        I was homosexually raped for the majority of my youth. Trust me, you dont want to know what goes through a persons mind afterwards, especially when their family doesnt believe them. Due to what my "Babysitter" did to me, i have no family. I have never married, never had children, have not spoken with my only brother in over 30 years, do not have a relationship with my parents, basically i am still alone. All because i turned him in, put him in jail (where he was killed, yah!), and my family turned against me. It really screws with a persons mind. When i said she needed help, i was saying it for her sake and her childrens sake, so they can overcome what happen, and not be condemed to a life like mine. THere is nothing we can do to stop what happen, we need to go forward. Killing and or torture will put her in prison and do two things wrong to her children: 1. rob them of their mother, thus both parents. 2. show her children that you can take the law into your own hands, where do they learn to stop?
        Its a hard choice, but she does need help in dealing with it. I stand by my advice.

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      • flutterhigh
        12 years ago

        You're right. Vetterman, you idiot, just use the damn time machine already.

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      • Bag_'O_Dimes
        12 years ago

        It's not anyone's fault except the person being raped(and the rapist--mainly because they're fucked up in the head). That's why there are classes in self defense classes and cans of maces. If you don't put up a struggle, you are consenting. There is no way to prevent every rape but people can do things to ever be prepared because you never know...whether it's a man or woman you just never know.

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Possibly u dreamed it. Ask them at a family gathering

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