I feel like i'm not real
So I started to smoke weed not TOO long ago. First time I smoked was when I was 12. I had a very bad panic attack and promised not to do it again. Then, I hit the age of 14, and started doing it again. The time I started doing it again was at a friends house. I had a small hit, didn't take in too much, and didn't hold it in too long. It was like a breathe in breathe out thing. The Weed Brand was diablo. I think that's what it's called. Then later I did some Green Crack, which is another weed brand, and I had a HUGE hit of that, and started coughing a lot after. The next day after I smoked the green crack and diablo and stuff, I started to feel REALLY fake. Like I wasn't there. Like everything was a dream, and I was like.. inside of my head. Went away the next day. I felt INSANE. Like I couldn't control myself. Later, within I think.. a week or two, I smoked again. I smoked Chronic, which is a weed brand. I didn't hold it in too much, took a few small hits of two joints. Breathed in and out quickly. Then a day or two after that, maybe a few, I started feeling fake again! And I couldn't come out. I felt like I was in a dream, like I couldn't control anything, like I was inside my head. even when i talked to my mom i felt fake. i didn't know what to do, and i still feel this way. im looking for an answer or some reassurance to know i'm not going crazy. I feel like I am, and i honestly can't take it. I think I was becoming addicted to the weed. But, my life is full of anxiety and stress. So anxiety and stress don't mix too well with weed, right? So now I feel like i'm not really here. And I've looked around, some answers say it's because of the weed and that the THC is stored in my fatty cells, and that i'll be like this for two months. Others say depersonalization disorder. Others say it'll wear off, that my brain just isn't used to it, and i shouldn't do it again. I've been like this for about maybe a week? I can barely focus in school. I have to be with friends, laughing, or doing something active to stop thinking about it otherwise i'd think too much and be inside my head too much and panic. I just want out. Any answers to tell me HOW to get out of this? Lets see what other info I can list. I feel like i need to pinch myself to know i'm real. And I feel disconnected from my friends and stuff. My friend said it was like a "semi-perminate fry" meaning it's gonna last a while, but I need to not think about it or it'll get worse. Depersonalization order was taken into consideration by myself, as well. Answers? I don't need to lose my head. Damn, above the fucking influence from now on.