I feel like i'm losing my mind

I wouldn't say you are going crazy, as the others said, you are able to understand what should be considered normal and what should be considered crazy, however it does seem quite abnormal, so I would suggest talking to someone personally about it, and if that doesn't work, I would suggest looking in to therapy, just incase.

A good sign that your not cray is recognizing that your going crazy.

This is normal in my opinion. Most people who say it is abnormal are people OBSESSED WITH "REAL" PORN STARS and cannot face the fact that they are basically obsessed with a fake character, a woman that will never exist in their life.

You will never gain human interaction with pornography, unless you believe that the whore on the screen would care if she ever saw you. They want money. They don't care.

At least your fictional character is your imagination and not an obsession with legalized prostitutes.

What karma said. You are A-okay, people have done much much worse than that.

Wouldn't it be a whole lot cheaper (than a therapist) and a whole lot more sensible (than losing your mind) to get out of the house and meet another real girl?
Come on, man, just because you've been rejected by a girl is no reason to recede into a shell and go all goo goo eyes for some fictional character.
Grow a pair; go out into the real world and live!

I don't think you have a mental disorder, in fact, in some ways you remind me of myself. I would guess your probably more of the creative type than the crazy type although for some these can go together. You can create a vivid world of fantasies and daydreams but you aren't having issues telling what's real and what's not. As long as this isn't getting in the way of life I see no issue, in fact, it may be somewhat of a healthy diversion if it's hard to find a woman at the moment. At the worst, if you are starting to slip a bit (which I do not think you are) it would be a relatively peaceful, more harmless lunacy as opposed to being truly a mental patient. The time to worry with things of this nature is when others begin questioning your behavior. I have sort of been down this road before, but with other things, some of which were somewhat scary. At times, I have had these sort of "tulpa-like" fantasies involving aliens, demons, spirits, energy frequencies, government mind control conspiracies, and other weird things like that. If you start having problems with this sort of thing you WILL know it. However, it will be a combination of you and other people's comments. When others comment that you seem nuts that's when you've probably started to go crazy. Usually, when you begin to believe these sorts of powerful fantasies, you know it is not normal but somehow think it's real. Often times, it stays this way that you think it's real but you somehow think that other people would think that your crazy. So, you sort of know your "crazy" without being aware that you are really kind of nuts. Sometimes, you can reach a point where other people start commenting that you "aren't acting yourself" or that they are "worried about your mental health". That's when you truly are starting to go nuts. At that stage, it can be hard to pull yourself out of on your own and you may benefit from some type of professional help for a time, but you are not at that point yet. What usually really kicks off going crazy is stress and it kind of spirals. First, you start getting a little more out there because life gets too difficult then other people worry about you which stresses you out further then you think your "going nuts" from time to time which scares you more and the next thing you know you can get pretty crazy possibly to the not even knowing it point. However, it can be averted by not getting too worried/stressed and be a chill person

I will also add that these porn addicts that litter this board watch hentai pornos with little 12 year-old looking girls. I think you are MORE NORMAL than those sick fucks will ever be. Look for a real woman and see if she will roleplay with oyu. That is completely normal.

It's ok to lose your mind, you'll b in a better place.

I'd say just go and engage more and more with people ...
As you said that although you liked this character before also but not that much ,but as soon as the real girl left you, you're getting more and more serious and involved in this fictional one... so I guess its clearly because she is the only left option..
going out with friends and talking more to people or getting busy in other stuff would give you less chance to think about this fictional character and that will absolutely be better for you because - you should realize that thinking too much about a thing that doesn't even exist in reality is something so pointless, I agree it would be fun and even pleasure giving but think about the fact that its NOT REAL. its not going to work out and that in the end it will get you to nothing.- so for you its better to engage in something that is beneficial for you.

It for sure isn't madness neither craziness, its an obsession through which I have gone... but mine wasn't at such extent.. and the best way I can suggest to help you is to be fully determined to avoid it (and if you keep on telling yourself that its fun and oh I'm enjoying it ,you'll have difficulty overcoming it).. skipping into imagination is so fun but do not forget its reality which every person has to face in the end. so try your best to be a much into real life as you can. and also if you enjoy having fictional characters in mind , create a best friend or someone who doesn't make you crazy like this..

I hope it helps you :)

The brain does some crazy things you can't control. I've had the same experience multiple times and I can tell you it's just your hormones going crazy. Sometimes your hormones just reach out and latch onto somebody (real or not) and stay there a while. Don't worry, you're fine. You will get over it eventually when your hormones get bored or find someone else to grab onto. :)

oh dear sounds like you have gotten stuck in the fantasy sort of world, don't let this play on your mind too much or you might end up seeking therapy, I would suggest you try looking for another girl perhaps forget the other one & put this fantasy girl aside for a little while, Im not saying what your doing is wrong but try not to let it swallow you up if you know what I mean?

And now I see the actual meaning of your post. If you are Asian, then this is normal. If you are a human, quit jacking off and see how fast a real woman lingerie model makes you bust a nut.

Watch human porn to see if you can gain the human connection again

Get out and suck a few cocks.

Indeed