I feel like i don't get along anywhere
I feel confused and depressed. Where do I begin I live in a town where most people are narrow minded and negative like they would judge other people as if they're already perfect and never made a mistake in their life.
I am in college now in the same town and my classmates are just so disturbing for me by the way they talk and think mostly about other person for being different but yet if that person's actually good at something they're gonna copy that person (like her fashion or something). I don't know if you get what I mean but here's an example.
There's this girl who just unfortunately having a problem with her body smells, my classmates they're gonna mock that girl whenever she's around with such a bad language. But then that girl knows how how to style her look and my disturbing classmates still would steal her look.
I'll be there like are you kidding me.
I know it made no sense but it happens to me even though they're my close friend like we would wait our class together and stuff. But I made some space with them now. Cause I can't stand them.
This is not just happened at one place, even people at my neighborhood they are soo negative.
The fact that they mock other people that's not nice. Maybe they're just kidding around okay but I smell something like they do it on purpose to mock. Really I can't accept that. Why can't we just talk about nice stuff without any intention to mock.
So I always end up being not friendly to them cause I don't like them. My face would go full of anger when they're annoy me. And it made me left with no friends cause they're gonna talk about me behind them for acting like that. They're gonna say that I am just a sensitive person "in a bad way".
Okay I am a sensitive person I've been through a lot for my age so whenever I saw bad things I can't help it but to stay away from it.
I really need a friend who is so open minded and won't judge me for being like that but I haven't found one I'm afraid they're gonna think ill of me if I talk about it to them. so I end up telling this story here. I hope you could help me. I feel lonely for not having someone who understand my socialize problem.
My family... they are pretty negative as well so can't talk to them about it.
Am I normal or not? Cause I feel like I am alone here facing negative people.