I feel like i cant imagine being in a loving relationship
This is quite strange but I don't know how to act in a relationship, like fundamentally I feel unsure what's appropriate and not I find it difficult to imagine a girl being really sexually open with me, I just don't know what it looks like.
I've had sex before but it was always casual and mostly unsatisfying I just have this weird I dunno if insecurity is the right word but I guess I don't think I've ever experienced a girl being really affectionate towards me and I dunno how I'd act in that situation.
I think I'd be really awkward and uncomfortable but at the same time I really want that affection, is this trust issues of some kind is it a deep seated fear of rejection why do I feel that way?
Sorry if this is unreadable I don't really know how to put into words how I feel