I feel like a freak most of the time

So I am 19. I live with typical asian parents who I feel are very close minded. I don't have the best relationship with my mom, cause she's the type of person who looks on the bad side of things in life and the bad things of people. growing up, I was surrounded by family friends and going to family friends parties and get bored to death. I also feel I wasn't surrounded by the best people either.During my high school years, it was a very difficult time for me. I was deeply depressed. I never had a real boyfriend or got to hang out with friends often. I was like a hermit. I looked at the popular girls and was caught up in what they were doing. I became envious. I felt like I was living in prison whenever I got home. my parents think education is the key to life. my mom would tell me I'm still young and I should stick with school. in high school I had only one close friend and now she acts as if I don't exist anymore now that we're in college. I've been diagnosed with ADD, I don't think I have driving ability, my parents want me to take things slow cos I'm slow. I am also quiet and shy, which most ppl may find creepy. I have felt suicidal and it pains me to see all these girls my age who were popular while In high school having fun and having boyfriends. There has been some guys who have checked me out and I get told I'm beautiful and pretty. I still don't have a boyfriend. I feel like an alien everytime I'm with my friends. during high school I also dealt with eating disorders, anorexia and bulimia, but now I'm getting better. I feel like I want to disappear sometimes.