I feel confused

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This will probably be few topics rolled into one.

I feel a lot of confusion about these things but I have focused so much effort into changing my reality.

When I met my ex she was writing a book which she doesn't seem to be working on anymore but there was something about it that I cannot seem to get out of my mind.

Her book was about a man who was an extra dimensional being who lived between many lives.

I believed her book was about me and was a parallel manifestation of what I was doing with my life.

The main character was an alternate version of me and the whole story related to my own life in a way that I believed that she had created me to exist in this novel where I existed as an imaginary character.

I felt angered when she didn't continue her book because I felt that it would end my mission and I would become more human as the story dissolved into this existence.

I have worked so hard to keep the world from ending yet nobody seems to ever understand. Nobody will ever comprehend what I have done.

I notice this website seems to be dying but I want it to continue because my old reality is dead as well.

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    I can't help but to agree with you on this possibility. Maybe, she left it unfinished so that the main character (you) could finish the story?

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  • poon_jabber
    9 years ago

    alternate realities? were you on acid when you contemplated all of this?

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  • Holzman_67
    9 years ago

    Yeah it's safe to say you're confused and while you are confused I wouldn't go reaching any premature conclusions.

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  • Anonnet
    9 years ago

    I think you should let it go. Some things are just outside of your control, eventually you have to live in reality like everyone else.

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  • RoseIsabella
    9 years ago

    Your so vain, you probably think that book is about you... If the character in the book was even loosely based on you why would she continue to write if she's now your ex? Who knows, maybe she burned the manuscript?

    Her world doesn't revolve around you, get over it!

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    • [Old Memory]
      9 years ago

      This isn't so much about my ex as it is about multiple realities. I may have been a bit unclear and will admit I was a bit drunk when I wrote this last night but it's something I still think about.

      She actually started the book and characters long before she met me and I concluded at the time that the story was based on things I had dreamed because I had previously believed somebody was writing my life. It would take me my own book to explain all this. She also stopped writing it before we even broke up and we broke up on good terms so it wasn't that she was mad at me. She was just too busy with college and work.

      I will admit these things may have been due to psychotic delusion but when I look back at things I was supposedly delusional about such as this and many other things where I would be able to control reality and travel through alternate dimensions. Nobody has ever seemed to understand and while society labeled me as psychotic and I now take meds which have made me more human I still remember how real it all was and think that I was some sort of god who was labeled insane. I would quit the meds again and go back but my gifts came with a terrible burden.

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