I feel bad for acting inappropriately towards my little cousin

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So some people don't have much of a conscience, but I do, I fell bad about little things that I do and now I am feeling really bad because of something .... bigger I have done. Well I have never had a girlfriend so I have never been able to get out sexual feelings in that way; so they stay inside me and bottle up. They used to sometimes go towards a younger audience. A few years ago I let it get the best of me and I started touching my younger cousin's butt, she was maybe 8, now you see why I feel so bad. This wasn't a one time thing either it has happened a lot and maybe it got a bit more aggressive over time. I wasn't and adult at the time, I was a teenager maybe 14 years old and it went on until maybe I was 16. I have never done anything more than touch her butt or rub up against her inappropriately. I feel horrible and it is eating me up. I have read on some websites that this happens to people and it is just a faze in there lives. But I feel so bad about it and just want to know if this is the littlest bit normal, I am not a monster actually I feel like I am a nice guy; but this is making me feel like a monster. I would love some feedback on this, thanks for your time.

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    What you did was wrong. I don't think I could carry such a burden, even the smallest things fill me with guilt. Do you know how your cousin is doing? What things did you do with her? This is an anonymous website. You can be completely honest here. I promise not to bash you, I just think you should be 100% open about it so I can give you the best advice and so you can get it off your chest.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      11 years ago

      Hey, first she is fine, she is still young so I don't think she really acknowledges it yet. And mainly it was just in a game we played where I would sit on the couch and she would run past and I would try to catch her, but sometimes when I caught her I would put my hands a bit too low. She has noticed that I have done it but she doesn't really care, she still wanted to play the game. Her sister who is older than her by a few years was present when it happened and she doesn't say anything or act like there is anything wrong. This is eating me up so bad, but I guess all that I can do is get it off my chest here and continue on with life.

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      • [Old Memory]
        11 years ago

        That doesn't seem so bad. Not what I was thinking you did at least. I had that feeling before too with my little cousin but did not act on it. It scared me actually. I felt like a freak. You aren't a freak. You made a few mistakes that don't seem like they would negatively affect your cousin so that's good. I agree with you and darthrule. Let it go, move on with your life and do good things. :)

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          11 years ago

          Thank you so much for taking the time to talk to me, it has made me feel so much better about myself.

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          • [Old Memory]
            11 years ago

            No problem any time.ヽ( ^･^ )ﾉ

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  • robramyou
    9 years ago

    I touched my older cousin when she was sleeping, she was on her stomach and i didn't want to turn her over in fear of her waking up, so i touched her butt and u slowly pulled her pants and panties down under her butt and i saw her naked butt and i played with it and i touched her buttcrack and i spread her butt apart and i saw her butthole and the smell of unwashed ass reached my nose(nothing t do with shit, and i loved it, so i leaned in and took a strong powerful whiff of her butt and butthole and i jacked off and cummed in 10 seconds and i put my finger in her butt and i put her pants and panties back on her and i left the room and 1 hour later she woke up and we played video games and she had no idea that i was smelling and touching her butt, and i kept smelling the finger that was in her butt and it made my dick hard again and she had no idea until like a month later i told her because i felt guilty but she didnt care and didnt believe me than god

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  • [Old Memory]
    11 years ago

    Well you have acknowledged the weight of this burden. Time to understand it and let it go. No one was hurt. Move on and do good things with your life.

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  • GuiltyAsEver
    7 years ago

    I touched my niece and made her grab and stroke my dick, she never wanted to but I convinced her it was fine. It started when she was three and I was fourteen... I had no never seen a vagina in real life and was inticed by the thought. I went in her room while she was sleeping and pulled down her blanket and underwear and touched her. It got weird, she followed me in the bathroom and I pulled out my dick and started peeing, she was curious and asked what it was. I then told her that it was what guys had so they could go pee. After that she kept asking me to come show her again, and being the horny teenager I was, I couldn't resist. I then started letting her touch it and stroke it, she would get all excited and I felt horrible because it was so hard to resist. She starte rubbing my dick really fast and before I could stop her I had cummed and it missed her barely and she got scared and grossed out. She thought it was pee, so every time after that she would ask if I had to go pee before she would go near my dick. After a while she started to not want to touch it or see it and I would try to convince her but she usually wouldn't want to so I would back off. Then one time she wanted to do more and she let me touch her vagina and rub my dick against it (Never cummed on her), most I ever did, it was always only her touching me, I would never touch her. By the way this in the space of two years so she was five by then. I didn't for a year and told myself I would never do it again but then I walked out with my dick out and thankfully she wanted Nothing to do with it. That was six months ago. I have felt so guilty and scared that she might one day tell someone and my family would hate me. I am a sick person that I would do that to a child.

    I am a compassionate guy who would never even think of hurting children or using them, but my curiosity and lust took the better of me. I feel sick just thinking about all this and writing it. I am sorry.

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    Not normal, but at least you feel remorse.

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  • zelskid
    11 years ago

    I tried to work my little sister into a relationship when I was 14 and she 12.
    Play doctor. My favorite was mutual massage, but she sensed it was wrong evidently and stopped me

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