I feel angry and jealous against my best friend?
Me and my best friend are super close and I love her. I am although extremely jealous because she is very beautiful and I am just average. :( I always try to help others and be generous, i try very hard at school and have a good relationship with god. She dropped out of school and is just rude and stuck-up. She lost 40 pounds by throwing up and somehow she just made herself 'stop' and begin eating only a little more than she should. Life is just not fair! Everyone thinks she is the greatest thing, but they don't even really know her! I sound like a horrible person reading this over, and I know I seem like a bitter person. I don't want to be, but I try so hard to be a good person, not just physically but I try to be very giving and caring. I don't put myself out there enough and I am very shy. Is this normal? Or am i just a B***H?