I feel an urge to punish other people's kids for wanting stuff
So, ever since I was a child (like 5 or 6) I am living with this weird urge to "punish" other children and babies for being too "spoiled".
Any time some kid wants something he / she clearly can't / shouldn't have just drives me nuts. I feel a really sinister pleasure in not giving them that thing they want. The more they want it and the more aggressive they become the more I feel the need to NOT give it to them and do the exact opposite thing, just so that I could piss them off even more.
It's as if I'm somehow teaching them that they can't always have what they want. That we actually live in a world where no one is obligated to just give you stuff you want, and if you're not big / smart enough to get it yourself, well too bad for you.
Kids' stubbornness just drives me insane and I feel a crazy need to pluck it out of them.
I don't really feel this for small babies where they clearly have no idea what they're doing, or for my own daughter for that matter. She's still really small, but somehow I know this won't be an issue.
I have a close friend with a 1 year and a couple of months old girl. She's already walking, has teeth, almost eating like an adult and also starting to speak syllables. Yet, she just can't go 5 minutes without her pacifier.
So, every time we're in the park I feel an uncontrollable need to take the pacifier from her and never give it back. The thought of her crying for it and getting really angry gives me some weird and annoying almost painful satisfaction.
I then imagine doing this up to a point where she finally realizes that I'm not giving her the pacifier back and accepts that fact, thus stops crying and wanting it.
When this finally happens (in my mind at least) I feel really calm and all those urges disappear. At this point I stop caring and I have no issues giving her the pacifier back.
All I really need is for her to forget her stubbornness and acknowledge her defeat.
Anyone else had anything close to this experience and what are your thoughts about it?