I fear death of me, my child, and my mother

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So to start off, I am a 19 year old single mother of an amazing little boy. He is currently 16 months old and I love him more than life itself. Over the years, my father was a bad alcoholic and put me and my mother through a living hell after she left him. And honestly even while they were still together. She remarried an awesome man who is a father to me. When I was 13, my real father tried to kill me by choking me. And after I had my son, i saw that my anxiety got so much worse (before i got pregnant I have been on prozac for about 2 years for my anxiety). I am so terrified him or my mother is going to die. Im scared that Im going to die and just the thought of it makes me want to cry. Sometimes I honestly feel like keeping my son locked up in my house for the rest of his life so nothing happens to him, but I know I can't do that. People have told me "death is normal" "its the way of life" "it happens to everyone". yes i understand that, but I just can't get over it and really just do not know how to deal with it anymore. Im about to go insane!!!!!

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  • aussiewolf
    13 years ago

    wow you need to get some professional help and if this guy is as bad as you say he is then why dont you go to the police and apply for a restraining order. dont stop your son from living a normal life because you have this fear. get help as soon as possible.

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  • jay77
    13 years ago

    I know just how you feel, I fear the same, don't know how to deal with it, I just hide it untill I need to deal with it, there is no point wasting time worrying, spend time being happy and valuing those you love.

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  • googlemeboy
    13 years ago

    I use to be scared of death especially late at night trying to sleep I use to tell myself I'm gonna die at 80 and count how many years that is from now it always took my mind off it or I thought all the stuff I wanna do until then maybe it'll help

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  • kellstar
    13 years ago

    aussiewolf gave excellent advice yet again, seek help asap please, for your son and yourself

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  • jadelove
    13 years ago

    I agree as well

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  • Echoes
    13 years ago

    ^^Agreed. Well Said, wolf.

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  • jessicia16
    13 years ago

    keep of junk like prozac ~ like three quarters of my friends who take it describe the same stuff has you ..... they never had prozac before and women had no trouble dealind with nazies , being raped ... loosing their kids and so much other stuff .... all this prozac and therapy is childish and un-natural ... just get over it ... so your dad was not a perfect guy ... he got drunk and choked you ... did all the typical mindless asshole stuff most alcaholic guys do who get divorced or are in a relationship while drunk every day .... really its not a big deal ... 50% of the earths women deal with that and much worse ... the diference is they deal with it naturally ... us americans deal with it like babys and we have tons of options to try .... basically you want someone to solve things for you help you work through it all .... thats not posible and the only time you need help or prozac is if you will kill yourself soon ... if you wont then you dont need it.

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