I dont want to lose her(in imaginations)

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if u have read my previous posts you know i have an imaginary girlfriend.
I just realized that it's not normal to have an imaginary girlfriend. Today I just told it directly to her, that this shouldn't end up in a good way (and explained it). she heard everything I just said,

but she was a bit scared,
she hold my hand [i hold my hand XD😧😢]
looked at my eyes..
her: what will you do if you feel lonely, alone, sad? 👀

me:(@brain???¿¿¿) : will do something, like watching YouTube, go out for something..., talk to friends / parents(they won't reply, if i need a reply i need to msg them on whatsapp😫)

me:(scared) what will you do?

she: somewhat something like you.. i guess...

me: don't stay lonely, alone. I mean don't just feel like you are in void....
(I was about to say 'i love you')

she: (still sad didn't look @ my face just looking down (like thinking something))

me: (I felt like she is scared because 'i will try to attempt suicide, like i tried before I met her)

me:(I just want to hug her..., nope this is not real(trying hard to belive it😣))

she: we must meet each other, somehow (tears ×2). God will let us meet each other.i will always pray for it.

me: anyway, this is never a relationship, it's just an imagination of how an ideal relationship would be.....

me😢:why am I talking to wall

she:....

me: I don't know...

she: anyway, in future someday, you have to call your future wife/gf what you always call me (`which is perl in my language`) because if it's me.... 😢😊😢.

me:💔

&me:💔

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I'm confused, a lot, about most of the things, after this wierd relationship

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now I am scared that if she is real, living like me, loveing like me,
do I lose her😫😭❔❔
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if I try to remember there is not a single day that i haven't tell her 'will never leave you cute (head2head)'

most wierd question that i have to ask...... (do you know her?😓🙁)

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  • anabnormal_guy
    2 years ago

    nobody ever loved me like that..

    & when I try to remember a girl who just loved me,
    its all black and white and started glitching.
    & when I try to tell someone that I love her, it was an absolute failure, mostly awkward

    2 years ago I started forceing myself in believing that I will never be able to find true love. nobody will give value to my feelings,

    a few months later I just hit an absolute failure in a most important exam (an exam failure which killed most of the girls in my location). that time I didn't try to suicide, but cried a lot, looking at the mirror, hated myself for not taking that exam seriously....

    that's when I first met her she was sitting near me, spare a few drops of tears, didn't let me stay alone or think/do something abnormal, although it was absolutely abnormal

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    • anabnormal_guy
      2 years ago

      I just feel like a kid
      who just created a toy/craft

      because he didnt get it even after crying a lot to this parents,

      I was like that when i was a kid

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  • Somenormie
    3 years ago

    Dude we have been over this more than a month ago, use apps like Tinder or Bumble to do the job for you.

    Your imaginary girlfriend isn't real, she wasn't real to begin with. I know I may be a bit harsh but harsh is the truth.

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  • Tommythecaty
    3 years ago

    Sorry dude, but you need help. Please go see a professional and get some therapy. No one here is qualified to help you out with your situation.

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  • Cuntsiclestick
    3 years ago

    Sorry dude, but you need help. Please go see a professional and get some therapy. No one here is qualified to help you out with your situation.

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    • [Old Memory]
      3 years ago

      I feel pretty qualified in saying OP is lacking attention somewhere

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