I dont know if ial ever find her again.
Alright here it goes... I am 18 and all my life i was raised with a sense of morals i was always told and taught to live by them and be a good person respectful always honest ( If i lie witch i do like everyone else i always end up telling the truth soon after). Now it was not all bad when i was living in a small town up north were everyone knows each other and the way we lived was common, For example when i met someone i liked it never started fast i could barely talk to her for the first few...weeks. iad be to nervous and i would slowly get used to being around them and being in a small town that really is not to hard. There was one time were i really got to know this amazing girl born and raised the same way i was, but after perusing a relationship with her her father told me to never speak to her because i used to fight with my parents allot... and thats not acceptable in that town. Well now that i moved to the city i have matured allot in the past year and no longer fight with my parents at all, i got a job and have made no friends at all in all the time i have been here. Things move so fast girls move faster. Guys meet girls and automatically expect one thing from them. I can honestly say i am not at all like the city guys i work with. I cant seem to keep up because you really can't get to know someone. You sorta have to ask them out right off the getgo or you might never see them again, that would work for me if i were good at approaching girls... But time and time again i get that look from them and i have nothing so say or do but look stupid. I dunno what it is maybe this sounds weird but i want more than sex in a relation ship i kinda feel like a hopeless romantic, i mean i am always into movies that most guys would not want to watch and its hard to admit but i always wished life were like that in a movie and find my soul mate,I am not about what i can get from her, i want to be her everything i want to do things that make her feel good make her feel special and smile. But i hardly ever see this in real life it seems all but a hope i only see in the movies. Am i weird to expect this dream relationship were i am someones everything? Or is this strictly something that will stay in the movies.