I dont feel myself in real life..

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Well... its my first time here~ so.. hi everyone im _______... currently living in singapore.. ok so..heres my story..well problem to be exact.

I am a normal student of the average human but the only thing i have problem is that.. i am very attached to virtual world. Because... when i was young i go to school like normal i have friends~ and i have been playing computer games. Now i literally played every game there is in the world(not really ALL) and i feel better in the virtual world.. because im always popular even tough i am weak and level low but everyone is happy that im there like.. when i login is like everyone will be so happy. I played games till i literally know what to do, where to level, what is this, what is that, how to do this, how to do that. Even how to make the game itself....

which makes me getting respected in the virtual world of games. Now ... the problem i have is that in real life.. i go to school.. but when im in school ..i feel lonely... its like theres no friends... when i try to make friend with them they all will criticize me.. like when i do something.. they all laugh and say ur so stupid, sux la u, this dont know that dont know. But when they need help they ask me.. everytime i help them they dont say thanks and after awhile they starts saying things about me. They do not put themself in other people shoes..

This is why im asking everyone..
is there anyone thats like me ?
attached to the virtual world of gaming rather then real life ?
why is my life so sickening but my virtual life so happy.
how i wish i could change it... is it because i sit behind the screen and no one knows how i look like thats why im happy... no... i just wanna know why am i so ...lonely......
and is there anyone out there.. just like me..

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  • Mersaphe
    10 years ago

    Yes, I also feel like my "real self" is my online persona, not my real life character. Personally I hate this physical world, I feel like the future is virtual and electronic. I see my body as being an empty vessel, and my brain and soul are the true me. I hate my body, I hate the way I look, I hate the way people judge me in real life. I wish I could always be the online me and the real world me could just jump in front of a train

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  • Boothdefense
    14 years ago

    Imagine they are two completely differant things, try to keep the virtual reality stuff for home then try to be as ajustable as possible at school

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  • PoisonFlowers
    14 years ago

    Hey greetings from the UK! I've been to Singapore once before, but my relatives are all in Malaysia :)

    Well, I can't say that I am much of a gamer myself, but I can understand what you mean. Many people who find friends on the internet are the same way - people like them and respect them, but in real life, things are completely different and it makes them want to escape into their "virtual life" even more.

    Similar things have happened to me though. Maybe not to such an extent, but when things were bad for me, I had all these friends in the internet and it made me feel even worse in a way that I was relying on that. Because it's only in the computer. It's good, but not as good as the real thing. Well, it is sort of real, but you know what I mean.

    Some advice - those people who don't respect you but keep asking for your help? You shouldn't give in to them and help them because they are using you. If they aren't prepared to be civil to you, why should you be nice to them? It's not going to win their approval. It's just not worth it because they sound like a bunch of idiots to be honest. Don't let them step all over you.

    School can be a crappy place. Luckily it's only temporary. Be careful not to live only online even though it may be tempting. Then maybe you'll find some decent people you get along with in real life too.

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    • Smartwater
      14 years ago

      I know exactly how you feel. I think that the best explanation for it is, in the virtual world you are everything you want to be in real life. And that person who you really are only, that only shows online, lets you truly live without the judgmental eyes of others. Unless you're literally blind it is impossible to not be aware of how others judge you but in games you're anything you want to be without that constraint. It's a hard decision to make. I chose to quit the online games and just be lonely hoping that i will meet some cool people. I think you should make the decision you think is best. Good luck.

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    • ChocolateBlues
      14 years ago

      heh~
      i really hope that really really happens >~< but still ! i will wait for that day~ xD

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  • MrWhat
    14 years ago

    Absolutely!!! I use to rely completely on the internet and video games for friends and respect. It is easier to obtain and it is so gratifying. Normal life is not nearly as action packed as a video game! But real life is much more dangerous, which is why i'm glad it is not as action packed because i probably would have been shot a long time ago! Don't feel lonely aw :( You should still have friends online, but try to get them in real life. I really came out of my shell and I talk to people all the time in Person. It's much easier for me. --But i totally know where you're coming from. i had to wait until i was like 18 to have a real girlfriend, and 19 or 20 till i got a girlfriend i actually New what to do with. i could talk to her and be with her and it grew from there and i helped me become a more social Person. Don't feel down. you can get plenty of friends in person. Just talk. Say hi every once and awhile. I find people in person that play games!! and I meet with them on the games sometimes, and then i see them at work or at school. it is great. Cheer up, believe me it's much more fun than you think! :) Just imagine right now the world is waiting to be introduced to you, you can meet anybody anywhere always. go out there and have fun.

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  • greenhillsblueskies
    14 years ago

    Hi,

    You must watch the movie 'Ben X'

    It is foreign but I enjoyed it and its much like your life.. may not help but some entertainment for you.

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