I dont date my own race is it normal

I an a bisexual male and take alot of heat when i tell people i only date outside of my race.When i say this people say i hate my own race(most of my friends are black)and that its a shame i don't like dark skin and "i dont know what im missing"(ive been with dark spanish ppl) they instantly start attacking white people for brainwashing me which in itself is pretty racist((mind you i used to hate white people when i was younger)),i am attracted to white people but however im attracted to mixed race people and latinos far more

Now for whatever reason i rarely see black people i find attractive and the same goes for indian,middle easteners, arabic etc ,its not like i see a black guy and say to myself hes sexy but hes black so i cant date him

Theres also cultural reasons that make finding a black guy harder for me,im an atheist and upon finding this most black people want nothing to do with me.

Ironically for all the the shade i get its black people that have also told me im not black,in school people called me yellow and after a while i just embraced it and people got angry when i did(i cant win) i was tormented for my taste in music genres other than r&b and rap

Has anyone else gone through this