I dont accept myself. is it normal
I don't know how to accept myself for who I am and what i like to do. I'm very habbitual. I am a creature of habbit. I try to get somewhere in life everyday. I try to do new things here and there but they only lead to me doing things I wish i hadnt. When i stick to my routine, things go well, but I feel like I'm spinning my wheels. I apply for jobs. No success. I try to fix things up to sale, I don't sell them. I work on my car, something else happens to it. I dress one way one day, figure I look dumb, so I change it the next, so on and so forth. Its like I'm never just content. I feel like a kid. I'm living at home again. Im always with my "mommy".
I'm just sick of this bull shit. But i can't get out of this situation until i find a job and make money. Any tips on what to do that's free and what can I do to just be happy with who i am?