I don't want to kill myself but...

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I'm always thinking of different of ways to kill myself even though I know I would never suicide. I'm about 95 percent sure I wouldn't but I just always think, what about killing myself by stabbing, cutting my own throat, etc. The only way I would kill myself is if things got really terrible or if I had to sacrifice myself to save somebody else. I'm not sure if I'm depressed maybe I am, my mom thinks I am, but I feel pretty happy, except I think about suicide more often. Is this normal? Do I need help?

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  • handsignals
    9 years ago

    Can't you think of anything more interesting?
    http://isitnormal.com/story/is-it-normal-that-i-want-to-die-this-way-163192/

    Why don't you run around Iraq dressed like Hulk Hogan singing the team America song.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      I just wanted to write it quick, so I wasn't writing down all the things I thought of just some simple ones. But yea that does seem like a cool way to die.

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      • handsignals
        9 years ago

        Let's hear some then Bro, share :)

        Talking about it might help you to understand it.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          9 years ago

          I want it to be quick so nobody can save me, I would do it so its more long and torturous but then there's more a chance I'll be saved. The one I like the most is diving from the rooftop of a tall apartment building and landing head first so that my neck snaps and I pass out or maybe my head I'll fall off, but either way its quick and sounds the most fun to be diving through the air. Another one I thought is more torturous, get a knife and stab myself in the hand (not the hand I'm using to stab the rest of myself with) and then carve something memorable into my stomach, then scratch up my legs and a little bit of my arms, then cut the sides of my belly not near the organs, right between my back and belly, then if I'm not dead by then I'll slit my throat. I got more but some of them are quite violent. I should also mention that I don't cut myself and I also feel very bad when a bug dies, and I can't kill bugs either cause I dislike unless its myself. So I think I might just be depressed but I don't know. And I'm guessing I need help right?

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