I don't want to be just cute.
I don't want to be cute and geeky like I am. I'm really into 1960s mod style but I can't just go around looking like that. I want to be beautiful and classy, tall and tan and young and lovely, not a baby faced chubby tomboy. I want to look rich, be rich, act rich, but I've been corrupted by having an older brother that taught me that my dreams will be crushed by society and lower mid -class parents that taught me how to embrace farting and burping. When I'm alone I sing jazzy songs as good as Peggy Lee. When I'm with friends I deliberately go off key. I want to be fancy, it is still possible to look classy on a budget, but I wish Sunday best was everyday best for me. I just can't pull it off because I'm merely "cute" and "geeky".