I don't talk about my emotions
I don't talk about my emotions and my mental health because I feel like I'm burdening others.
For example: the past 4 days I've been extremely busy to the point of skipping meals. Well my parents wanted to talk to me last night about something my dad requested me to do two weeks ago. I really wanted to tell him off, but I didn't want to start conflict. I just prefer to shut the fuck up and get it over with. However yet, my mental health is deteriorating because of the lack of food and sleep. Not to mention, I've felt flu like symptoms due to the stress I'm going through
I really wanted to tell them both about my mental health, but I'd be burdening them with my own negative drama; something they avoid. I've told my fiance about my mental health and now he's super worried about me. "Get a therapist" you all say. Well I can't cause they would prescribe me a medication. I'm more of a holistic believer than just taking medications.
I know that the real world won't let me take breaks whenever I feel like it.... If I did, I would come off as a slacker and I can't have that. On the other hand, my mental health needs a day to unwind. I don't know what to do anymore.