I don't see anything through. iin?
There's only been a couple official things in my life that I actually accomplished. GED and college. I obtained a driver's license but it's been revoked. Several times over.
I am completely irresponsible.
I quit or get kicked out of EVERYTHING I try to do.
I back out of promises or commitments ALL the time.
I don't pay debts.
I always want to move.
I leave jobs and just never come back. I never say upfront that I'm quitting, I just vanish. I've not even had a job in several years.
I can't even read a book cover to cover or watch an entire movie, for fucks sake!! I can't even read one whole page of a book in order, in entirety.
I fuck people over constantly.
I scam and scheme.
I don't participate in society aside from a very, very bare minimum that's absolutely necessary for survival, acquisition of goods or ordered by law.
I have so much fucking time on my hands yet I do literally NOTHING productive. Anything I do is self-centered, easy, half-assed, forced by law, whatever.
I rip people a new asshole all the time even though I'm (usually) the fucktard in the whole situation. Oh well.
I don't like anyone, even my family. Especially my family.
I take and take and take from whoever and whatever I can.
I commit at least one felonious crime every day I live. I have several warrants for my arrest. Catch me if you can! They won't, the warrants I have are not worth the cost of my extradition. They're for non-violent misdemeanors.
The clincher is, I don't give a FUCK!! I don't want to change. I don't reflect back on all my "failures", ineptitude, promiscuity, anti-social behaviors, etc, and think 'oh I'm awful'. I see success. I'm still alive, having fun, doing what I want, when I want and living for free. What are YOU doing? I have a very high IQ, and I hoard it all to myself. I wouldn't use my intelligence to help this world or anyone in it!! The thought turns my stomach.
To answer your inevitable question, "why do you have a GED if you're a genius?"....Because I wasn't allowed to continue school after I turned 15. I did tell you I got kicked out of everything, didn't I? Yes, I did! But you forgot that already, didn't ya?
is it normal to be like this as a nearly middle-aged person? Gah, of course it's not normal, I already know this. Just comment about the dipshits like me that you know.