I don't know what to do with my life anymore because of my penis looks
Its horrible being different like this, in such a private way. For so long my anxiety and depression about my circ has plagued me. I feel as though I cant live the life I was supposed to live, I don't have the confidence I should have. My circumcision is a very bad example, too much skin taken away resulting in erections that can sometimes be uncomfortable, scrotum skin almost half way up my shaft, very bad scarring, skin bridges, some lumpiness and the most uneven cut I've ever seen. WHY? did this have to be me. It's pretty hard being in school with a very bad circumcision Its affected my mentality quite a lot am always shy, as I said I have huge amounts of anxiety about it and constantly get depressed, I cant remember the last day I didn't get depressed. I get depressed about how it's affected the decisions I've made in the past i don' have any single confidence, girls I should have gone further with, things I should have done but didn't at the time because I was too self aware and ashamed with very low self esteem. I can also beat myself up quite a lot, I have a negative self-image because of this. I feel whatever I achieve and do I will never be as good as I should be because I have a horrible circumcision. It massively affects my motivation and enjoyment of life. I'm literally struggling at school because I get so depressed about this. I am not who I was supposed to be I know I should not live my life depressed like this but it's hard when you feel like half the man you were supposed to be, my feelings seem so honest...like its not me being stupid but I should generally be this upset and anxious about this
i don't know if its okay here so that i can post some images of it