I don't feel like every day life will ever make me happy

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I am 20 years old now and ever since I was young I have had trouble with the world around me. People locked away in cubes, being stuck on a track since the day you are born. Yea sure you can make some decisions but those are mostly only a matter of going left or right on another track that has been layed out for you. It has gotten so bad that I started to feel depressed when I looked around and saw only working ants. When I was 19 I won a contest. The 1st prize was a journey to Uganda with a group of volunteers. And suddenly I felt happy as can be. Everything I did helped people. I helped building houses and saw the happyness in the face of kids who had lived a horrible life. Everyday I was cheery but sadly I had to come back after 3 months. After that, I saw everybody doing the exact same thing over and over again. I was back again in a society of Narcissists. Ever since I got back I have been dreaming of going back. To where everyday life has purpose for not only the self but the masses. Don't get me wrong. I did volunteer work in my own country as well but it was nothing like Uganda. So I want to pack my things leave everything behind. My parents, my girlfriend, my friends. And move to uganda to spend my life helping in the struggle. I just really wanted to know if it is normal to look at society this way because I really have developed a hatred against it.

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  • watashikara
    10 years ago

    Guess what, you found your place in life, congrats. Do what you love please! Go help people in Uganda or whatever/wherever! Life can be so terrible at times and the fact that you want to do something to help is great! You are a rare individual. Don't hate though, its never good to embrace hatred.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    My Dad voulenteers in other countries too. He says people here are more depressed that people in 3rd world countries because people here are spoiled. People are happier when they have nothing.

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    • linchpin
      10 years ago

      They enjoy lifes small pleasures more

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    • EccentricWeird
      10 years ago

      Yep, we rich white fuckers are doing great here. We have no problems and we also shit rainbows, and everyone knows people with brown skin can't take care of their own problems, they need well-meaning 'volunteers' for everything. They're also the most precious and most important life-forms on the planet, much more so than us evil white people.

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      • [Old Memory]
        10 years ago

        Are you being sarcastic?

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        • EccentricWeird
          10 years ago

          Just re-framing what you, OP and so many other L.G. and P.C. self-pitying assholes imply by what you say.

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          • [Old Memory]
            10 years ago

            Now I'm confused. What does LG stand for?
            The reason people are happier in those countries is because they haven't been spoiled.
            People here expect things, but to someone who never has anything the little things make their day.

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            • EccentricWeird
              10 years ago

              "spoiled"... as if by magic? spoiled by two of the bloodiest wars in the history of earth and a brutal industrial revolution. 50 years of prosperity, soon to disappear under the misguided rule of a corporate oligarchy and a purchased government, and that's "spoiled". you really are a dumbass, and you need to remember where you come from. here's a hint... it's not the sky.

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  • hellvetican1995
    9 years ago

    Drugs are the answer.

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  • familyguy63
    10 years ago

    Dudes right! You bleeding heart liberals crack me up.There's no dirt poor folks where you come from?I'm sure your dad or grandad worked hard so you can say dumb ass shit like that! So unless you are going to live in a mud hut and eat same as the natives,shut your spoiled white ass the fuck up.

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  • EccentricWeird
    10 years ago

    Wait until you're 21, and if you still haven't snapped out of your naive bullshit... 22.

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  • handsignals
    10 years ago

    It's only after we've lost everything that were free to do anything.

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago

    Good for you.
    There are hundreds of NGO's out there that are looking for you. If you are serious about this, then with the help of the internet, you should be on your way to somewhere, where you can make a difference, in short order.
    Though I am much more hedonistic than you, take it from someone who has never worked in an office, a cubical or for a large company; there is a huge world of opportunities out there for those who choose NOT to join the "rat race".

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  • driedroses
    10 years ago

    I can relate... You're not alone.

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  • ThisIsImpossible
    10 years ago

    It must be hard living someplace where you're so much better than everyone else.

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