I don't feel bad for the people i "killed".
I recently got out on parole after doing 8 years for drug dealing. I did not get caught for 10 years. Let's start from the beginning.
I started as an 18 year old college student, fresh out of the foster care system, on the brink of homelessness. I was robbed at gunpoint one night and had everything taken from me. Without rent money, I was facing eviction. The next day, at work, a customer, who just happened to be an acquaintance from my last foster home, casually mentioned the possibility of my joining him in his venture. I accepted without hesitation.
At the height of my "career", I owned a quaint house in the ghetto while making a modest salary as a counselor at a homeless shelter. Although it seems like I would be more suspicious, it was the perfect cover. I made anywhere from $5000-$10000 a month having select clients do my dirty work in exchange for product and I had the trust and respect of several key members of the community. I assure you, if it sounds like fiction to you, I barely believe it myself.
Although I periodically had a client or two die while on the drugs, what ended me was the sudden string of death of 4 of my clients.
A couple of clients of mine were trying to use my supplier's product to start their own, independent venture. They were bait and switching with their own product and pocketing good money. My supplier caught on and sold the clueless morons a bad batch, unaware of just HOW bad it was and without informing me. As a result, 4 known druggies with heavy criminal records died within a week. Eventually, the police caught onto my trail.
Although I am no better than them, I despised all of my clients and see their deaths as a natural part of their lifestyles. The majority of them were horrible individuals. I have seen evils that I will never be able to reconcile.
So what do you think? Has it turned me into a psychopath? Should I feel guilt?
| You should feel guilt. | 34 | |
| You should not feel guilt. | 44 |