I don't care anymore, and i like it.

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I used to have constant anxiety over looking the best I could, having my hair and clothes and body perfect, being in shape basically putting all my self worth in my looks. I had panic attacks band depression and eating disorders. These days I'm on meds and um the opposite. I eat whatever I want, don't bother with my hair or makeup and the biggest change is I'm getting fat and I DO NOT CARE. I'm much happier this way but is it normal? People always told me how great I looked when I was anorexic and miserable but I really have no concern about getting fat, I'm still the same person. Is there even a reason I should care? I feel a lot less shallow and also love eating a lot of junk I'd never have touched before. I used to cry every day and was suicidal before the meds, now I feel at peace.

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  • Aliceee93
    8 years ago

    Seems a very drastic change. But do what makes you happy. Life shouldn't be taken to seriously... Says the girl who worries about anything :P

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  • deepdankstickygoo
    8 years ago

    Anorexic girls always think they look good but they look disgusting and sick. Most guys want a healthy girl who does not look like she has HIV or cancer. Just eat and be healthy. Nothin worse than an anorexic person who only talks about their problems all the time.

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    • alienslayer
      8 years ago

      That's just mean now, HIV or cancer, you make the ill people sound like they are unattarctive.

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  • Clone1990
    8 years ago

    no, anorexia never goes away and you'll be kicking yourself and feeling gross for eating junk and getting fat lol. don't be suicidal or sad but don't ruin a good body just because your meds increased your appetite alot.

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    • Dread-pool
      8 years ago

      take clone's advice.

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  • celestialfox
    8 years ago

    Honestly, it's better to just eat normally haha. It's great that you feel as though you no longer care about being skinny, but letting yourself go through eating too much junk food can be dangerous as well. I'm merely saying this from a scientific stand point. I would suggest looking up what a healthy bmi would be and trying to stick to it, not letting it go too much above or too much under. This can literally be accomplished by eating well (for the most part, junk is ok sometimes) and going on like, one 30 minute walk a day. Not only that, but you'll feel like a rock star!!!! I used to be absolutely obsessed about my weight, until I started doing healthy things and realized how much better it made me feel. BUT. I wouldnt get your medical advice online, so my main advice will be to contact your doctor and perhaps a therapist (no shame, my own therapist is awesome!)

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  • snarkygirl
    8 years ago

    I feel ya

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