I don’t know how i feel
So my ex best friend is obsessed with me. I’m not trying to be shallow or make assumptions. He really really loves me and makes no effort in hiding it and used to put so much effort into winning me over. I always tried to friend zone him and remain friends but eventually his sensitivity and all the effort he put in to win me over rubbed off on me and I started feeling conflicted with urges to kiss him and touch him despite my insistence I wasn’t attracted to him in that way. Somehow I managed to confess my feelings to him and we dated for a short period of time, but the feelings suddenly slipped away and I regretted my decision. I couldn’t decide whether I liked him or not. In the end I really hurt him and we only recently started speaking again but suddenly the urge to kiss him has come back! He kissed me and I let him just yesterday and now everything is confusing again. I hate myself for hurting him and I don’t understand why I can’t just pick a side and how to feel about him. Any advice?