I dislike my mother

I have recently developed a dislike for my mother. It isn't really a rebellious fase or that I don't like being told what to do. I am a natural introvert and I like to stay home and read, draw, listen to music, write stories etc. But my mother always seems to take pleasure in publicly embarrassing me or making me feel awkward in front of my family. I have always seen her as quite manipulative because she doesn't need to insult you to make you feel inferior and she always acts very sweet everyone else except from my father. She would constantly criticise me and whenever I was in a fight with another girl she would be quick to take the other girls side. She would make me feel guilty for things I hadn't done and I am always the first to be blamed if something goes wrong. Like when £5 for my exam re-sit went missing, my mum instantly started accusing me of taking it even though it turned out my father forgot to put it in the envelope. I find it hard to talk to people about it because she insults me indirectly and I can't pinpoint the insult. It has led me to simply hate everything about her at times, the way she smiles, how she talks and the way she walks. She is constantly lowering my self esteem but I can't tell anyone because they believe I'm paranoid. When I told her about my problems with depression I hoped she would understand because she is a mental health nurse. But instead she told me I was fine and I was on my phone to much, didn't go out enough, didn't drink enough and didn't eat enough. My emotional pain is apparently my fault and the reason I struggle to cope with everyday life is because I'm lazy. I'm also an only child so I have no siblings who understand and I just feel trapped. Are my feelings rational or is it really just a fase and will my feelings will pass?