I didn't cry when my dad passed on.
Hi. My dad passed on a while ago from some complications from the medicine he'd been taking to cope with leukemia. He was being wheeled to the icu one day and after 2 days the doctor told us that they had done whatever they could and they're gonna take him out from the icu and place him in a single ward so that we can stay together with him till he passes on, and told us that he would last for at least 3 days in that room. And everyone of my family broke down and cried. But what I felt, besides shock, was a sudden surge of responsibility and confidence, and I couldn't bring myself to cry. I walked away from my family, and I heard a voice in my head, that said, look after your mum for me. After I heard this, I became stronger than ever, and I wanted my dad to free himself as soon as possible because he was suffering.
I went to him and I promised him. A day later he passed away. My family went hysterical. And me, being the closest one to my dad always, didn't even shed a tear cause i couldn't do it. The time when I cried, was when his body was sent to be cremated. I still have VERY vivid dreams of talking to him every now and then, and when I reach out to touch him everytime, he feels wet and cold, i don't know if this is normal, and I would like to hear your inputs! Sorry for the really long post, I miss my dad alot.