I destroy things

Ever since I can remember, I've always picked at things. I've always destroyed things. It's like an uncontrollable habit. Sometimes I do it without even noticing it.

In class, I'd be holding a brand new pencil in my hand, and after a few minutes, there won't be any eraser left. I'd have picked at it and tore it up into tiny little pieces.

It's not that I'm angry, and I'm not always bored either. It just happens, no matter what mood I'm in.

I've tried to do the opposite- to create things. To build things. It's impossible. I'll try to draw, and I'll end up scribbling all over it just to ruin it. When it recently snowed this christmas, I thought I would try to make a snowman. No matter how hard I tried to make it, I kept destroying it over and over. I thought I could make a snow fort. I got about 1/4 the way finished, and decided to step all on it and just ultimately destroy it.

I either have an urge to destroy something, or do it without meaning to. Someone may make something, and I'll mess it up without even noticing and people hate me for it. (That explains why I didn't have many friends in preschool(playdough)).

My mother always complains of how I destroy things. She gets so mad. She's learned not to buy me new furniture. I'm like a cat. I scratch it up. My bedside table has holes and dents and strips or wood missing from it. My wooden headboard on my bed has been picked at and I carved random shapes into it with my fingernails. My PS2 controller barely has a start button because it has been picked off.
This habit is REALLY bad. Mom says I should go into the destruction business, you know like bulldozing houses and wreckingballs, etc. I know I don't want to do that though.

Does anyone else have this problem?? Is this normal? Can someone helps me please?!?

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  • ouchez

    You are actually gozilla re-incarnated in a human body.

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  • Joyless

    I'm sorry man, this is terrible. I know because i used to do much the same thing when i was younger. I just fidgeted with things until they broke and then i moved on.

    I'd like to say I%%u2019ve stopped now but the urge is still with me although I seldom give into it, and feel bad when I do. I can't help you other than to say I think it is normal human nature perhaps everyone else are the freaks.

    Post apocalypse will be fun for us though.

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  • Notbyhisownname

    Looks like an OCD to me

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  • Thats like me but I'll chew on things or stab things with writing utinsils

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  • Wallybeb

    I have the Same problem. Plus I owe 300$ in book repairs... But yea, it's fine just try to chew gum that's what I do

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  • csciabarasi

    lol. ok, thanks anyways :) At least I know someone might have this problem :)

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