I deeply hate my father. is that normal?
I'm 20 years old and I hate my father deeper and deeper every day. Since I was a kid, he was always talking down the things I liked, insulting me, pretending to be superior over me... He thinks he can do that just because he is the f*cking father, the one who brings most of the money to this f*cking house, because I still need his f*cking favors. As the time goes, I hate him more and more every day. His rude comments about my stuff always leave a bitter taste in my mouth and ruin my day down. I'm disgusted by his presence, I feel calm only when he's not at home. I'm dying for the day when I'll have my own job, my own car and I won't need his f*cking services anymore. On that day, he'll swallow all his words and regret every d*mned moment he insulted me or things I liked. But there are at least 4 years left for me to wait. Is that normal?
Besides wanting to know if it's normal or not, I want to know how can I live in this situation for four years more. The possibility of fixing our relationship is extremely small, because I can't help but detest him, hate him to hell... what can I do, how can I mentally survive living with him for four d*mned years more?